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D.PAMELA hidden away from the public eye



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Date: 22 Oct 1996 01:36:59 GMT

From: d <d@abc.efg>

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Subject: <*> Repost "Pamela" (mf)

Well, it's been about two years or so since I originally posted

this story, and I could either use the ego stroking (insert obligatory

'stroking' joke here) or the constructive criticism needed to give me

the momentum to rewrite the other story I have but never finished or

posted. [If you're still out there, (and he knows who he is). Yes it's

me and yes it's that story I'm referring to.]

Disclaimer : This story is fiction. Period. It also contains

explicit descriptions of sex between consenting adults. If such

stories offend you, then simply ignore it. Any messages about the

morality of such stories will go unread; Instead teach someone to read

or feed the hungry. Constructive criticisms and comments are of

course welcome.

Permission is given to freely distribute/archive this story
electronically so long as : Its content is unaltered (the disclaimer

and copyright MUST be included and it is not distributed for profit

without permission of the author.

Also, a single *Nondistributable* hardcopy may be made for

private use *only*.

Pamela

(C) 1994-5 by d

I had just settled in for the night with the latest in a long

series of texts when the doorbell broke my concentration. Annoyed, I

quickly scanned the rest of the paragraph and then sat upright on the

couch. Gently placing the still open book face down onto the coffee

table, I pulled myself to my feet.

When I opened the door, I found a disheveled figure standing

zombielike; her clothes were soaking wet from the rain, pulling down

on her posture like the weight of the world. The wet mass of curls

fell partly over her face, but failed to obscure her eyes. "Mark?" She

sobbed as she stumbled on the doorstep. I managed to put my hands out

to support her as she fell forward. Pamela - Those deep brown eyes

could only belong to her.

Her skin was frightfully cold to the touch, and she was shivering

as I first steadied her balance, then led her slowly into the living

room.

After placing her on the couch, I quickly retrieved a blanket

from the hall closet, and wrapped it about her shoulders. She leaned

toward me as I sat beside her and I pulled her close, cradling her

head to my chest. "Want to talk?" I spoke softly. She nodded, but

remained quiet.

A sense of deja vu began to creep up from the corners of my

mind. Marie had always liked the rain, and she would love to lead me

on long walks in summer showers. Dancing in the downfall, she would

entice me onward as I attempted at first to avoid stepping in the

puddles. At long last when my socks had finally soaked through and I

had loosened up, she would kiss me, long and deep.

I pushed the rest of the thought away and focused on Pam. We had

been friends forever and even at her lowest, I'd never seen her like

this. Her normally bright and cheerful face was pale and

hollow. Unlike 'Rie, she would never be mistaken for a model, and

though she never used much makeup to enhance the looks that she did

have, I never tired of the smile that was conspicuously absent.

Her hair felt a little less cold against my cheek as her body

began to warm up. I could feel her breathe through the arm I had

wrapped around her. Her breaths were strong but fast as whatever

haunted her raced through her soul. The beat felt familiar; much like

'Rie's, when we would at last stumble home from those walks. Soaked

through to the bone, we'd ...

Pam took a long deep breath and held it for a moment, pulling

herself upright. She was still shivering a little. "I took off from

work early today so I could surprise Glenn," she paused as her eyes

fell downward, "I was ready to cook him dinner and all."

As long as I had known her, she had never been the domestic type;

I must have looked a little surprised, because she almost smiled

before continuing. "He wasn't supposed to be home 'til late, so I just

went in. There were some noises coming from the bedroom." She closed

her eyes and gulped, staring at an image burned into her mind. "Glenn

was with some ... woman!" She choked and looked down at her lap, "they

were ... they were ..."

She couldn't finish the sentence. I pulled her close expecting a

burst of tears, but none was coming. It was now late-evening. That

meant she must have been crying for hours now - there were just no

more tears left.

I think I remember feeling her heart beating as I held her. She

felt awkward in my arms - the contours of her body just didn't match

mine - not like 'Rie. I felt a sudden cold spot develop on my chest

and I realized that the water in her clothing had soaked through the

blanket. I pushed her away and avoided meeting her eyes. "You're

soaked ... why don't you change into some dry clothes," I said as I

rose and ducked into the bedroom. Moments later, I emerged and handed

her a dry T-shirt and sweatpants. "You can borrow these."

I paced as she changed in the bathroom; I wished I couldn't feel

her pain, but my own was still fresh. I closed my eyes and could

almost feel Marie beside me. She was beautiful by anybody's standards;

There was just something about her that drew men to her. She used to

say that if she had been born blonde, she would have been a beauty

queen. I never replied; considering myself lucky that she would

choose to be with an average joe like me. I sometimes wondered if it

would have made any difference if I had.

Pamela emerged and disrupted my thoughts. She was still pale, and

didn't even move when I brushed the hair away from her face. I almost

led her back out to the couch, but she looked numb. I pointed her

towards the bedroom. "Get some rest and we can talk in the morning," I

instructed her.

By the time I retrieved some extra blankets, I found her fast

asleep on the bed. Carefully I pulled the sheets from under her and

tucked her in, gently laying the extra blankets over her.

I went back out to the living room, and pulled back the curtain

to stare out into the rain. I started to wonder if Marie was staring

out at the same storm, thinking the same thoughts - but no, she had

made it perfectly clear how she felt about me now. I started to turn

away, but there was something disturbing about the scene I viewed, so

I stared for long moments before I figured what it was; Pam's car. It

wasn't in the driveway, nor on the street. I turned around and stared

across the living room and down the hallway. She had walked from her

apartment and judging from the distance, that's what she had been

doing all evening. She was always full of surprises.

I sighed and made my way over to the couch and sat next to the

wet blanket still lying there. It hadn't registered earlier, but it

was Marie's favorite. I reached out and pulled a corner of it up to my

face. The faint smell of her perfume invaded my thoughts.

After those walks in the rain, we would shower together and

retreat to the couch, wrapped snugly in the blanket. Those were the

times I loved her the most. The rain washed away her vanity, and it

was when - hidden away from the public eye - she was the most real. It

was probably no coincidence that it all fell apart in the dead of

winter.

I let myself fall backward into a supine position, pulling the

blanket with me. Why was I still crazy about her anyway? Towards the

end, all she did was pick fights and complain. I should have been glad

when she left, but instead, I went to Glenn and Pam and ... I pulled

my head up and stared down the hallway. Full circle - in more ways

than one.

I thought about Glenn. He had fallen in love with Pam the instant

he met her; not that I blamed him. She just seemed to know exactly

what to say in every situation. That was the part of our friendship

that I treasured the most.

I hadn't really realized how much I cared for her until she met

him. It took some time to get over the initial jealously I felt

watching their relationship grow, but it was clear that she cared for

him, so I distanced myself. Still, we remained close, even after they

became serious - she and I would spend long hours on the phone just

talking.

Of course 'Rie entered my life and changed all that. Not only did

she monopolize my time, but in fact she had me wrapped around her

finger. I let her get away with it all as I reveled in the attention;

her soft voice and soothing caresses drew me so deep into her

spell. Yet somehow Pam and I kept the deep bond of trust we developed

over the years; we confided our problems and sorrows in each other.

In the end 'Rie had been deeply distrustful of that friendship;

It was yet another thing she could hold against me. I began to wonder

if that same thing drove Glenn to another woman.

No, we had all made our own choices. Pam's pain was his

responsibility, and judging by the fact that he hadn't tried to find

her here of all places, he didn't care.

I closed my eyes and let the sounds of the rain wash over

me. "'Rie," I sighed. She used to lie on top of me with her head on my

chest, her brown curls draped over me, her gentle breath flowing

... Black ... 'Rie's hair was jet black and straight. She would have

killed me if she had ... what? As I watched her walk out the door, she

didn't even acknowledge me. Not a word, not a glance ... not a hint of

the love we once shared ... nothing.

*****

I turned over and shaking out some of the cobwebs, and looked at

the clock. It read 6:03AM. I had some time before my alarm went

off. The events of the previous night dawned on me slowly, but when

they did, I groggily pulled myself off the couch and made my way into

the bedroom. Quietly I made my way over to the far side of the bed

and turned off the alarm before turning to leave.

"Mark ... wait," Pamela cried out after me, "don't go."

I turned to look at her. In the early morning light, I could

barely make out that her eyes were red. "Yeah?"

"Just don't go."

"Ok," I made my way over to the bed and sat down beside her. She

sat up straight and placed her head on my shoulder.

"Why?" she burst out, half in tears.

"I don't know. Sometimes it happens, no matter how much we love

them." The words sounded just as hollow as when I heard them, but I

didn't know what else to say. I wrapped my arms around her and fought

the awkwardness of her body. It just didn't fit right, but I didn't

dare push her away.

She eventually took a long breath and broke the long silence that

followed. "I suppose I should have seen it coming..." She raised her

head, and I looked at her puzzled. "For the last few months, he's been

leaving home earlier and coming back later. I don't remember the last

time we sat and talked ... or ..." She looked down at her lap, where

she was fiddling with the bottom of her shirt.

"Compared with you, I can't possibly imagine what he sees in

her."

"Oh, Mark. You always know what to say"

"You know, that's what I've always thought about you."

"Thanks," she smiled weakly. "I ... Mark, I should have

... chosen you."

"What?"

She looked away guiltily, and I stared at her, trying to

contemplate what she had just said. The top of her shirt was still a

little damp from her hair and the front clung to her and showed a hint

of her cleavage, enhanced by the soft early morning sun. She turned

back to me and leaned forward slowly. I froze as she kissed me softly

on the cheek. When I didn't resist, she wrapped her arms around me and

pulled herself close. "I should have chosen you," she whispered

softly.

I felt myself returning her embrace and I whispered into the

crook of her neck. "I've always wondered ..."

She pulled back and put a finger up to my lips. "I know." She

leaned into me and we kissed lightly. Her lips were soft and I

welcomed the once familiar warmth. I started to run my fingers through

her long hair, "Oh Marie," I moaned.

She pulled her head suddenly back and broke our embrace. I was

terrified, but she only led my hands up to her chest. "Make love to

me," she said.

Her breasts were more amazing than I could had ever

imagined. They were firm, but supple, and I began to massage them

thoroughly. Apparently they were also quite sensitive - she closed

her eyes and began to moan when I pinched her nipples through the thin

shirt. When she threw her head back and fell backwards onto the bed, I

leaned forward and pulled the shirt up and began to suckle her

fantastic melons. I started by licking large circles around the

boundaries of her left tit, and spiraled in toward her dark

aureole. When I reached the center, I took her nipple softly between

my teeth and began to saw my lower jaw back and forth slowly opposing

the motion with my tongue. After it became stiff, I repeated the

motion on her right breast and she rewarded the attention by arching

her back, wrapping her arms around my head and pulling my face into

her chest. She let out a cry of passion, so I replied by again

munching on her nipples.

I was hardly done however. I reached up and pinched a nipple in

each hand between my thumbs and forefingers. I started to run my

tongue up and down her cleavage, pushing her breasts around my face.

I worked my way downwards, running my tongue all over her tight

stomach, all the while fondling her mams. I pulled off the sweatpants

she was wearing and I found myself staring at her wet and wonderful

pussy. She wrapped her legs around my neck and pulled me in toward her

honeypot. But I had other ideas; this had to be done right. I began

teasing her, by running my tongue along the soft contours of her inner

thighs and lavishing soft kisses on her belly.

"Oh yes," she gasped, as she began to fondle her own tits. She

began to move her hips around in an attempt to find my tongue with her

slit, but I continued to tease her thighs until her voice had an edge

of desperation, "Oh ... Please. I need you."

She moaned loudly as I gently touched the tip of my tongue to her

slit, then began to lick her in slow, deliberate strokes. "Please,

don't stop." She reached down with one hand and gently nudged my face

into her dripping cunt. This time I didn't resist. I quickly found her

engorged clit and grasping it between my lips, I let a low throaty

hum, escape my throat. She responded instantly, bucking her hips up

and down through a volcanic orgasm as the vibrations pierced her

being.

When it was over, I disentangled myself from her legs and lay

down on her limp body. I kissed her softly, as my throbbing dick

pressed against her thigh.

She returned my kiss with a contented moan. "Mmm," she sighed,

"Now make love to me." I smiled and reached down to pull her knees up

toward her chest. Using the weight of my upper body, I pinned her legs

to her body, which prevented her from moving her hips. Then I

continued my teasing game by placing the tip of my engorged penis up

to her slit. She gasped at the contact and closed her eyes in

anticipation of my thrust, but it was a long time in coming. "Oh!" she

moaned, as I nudged against her clit, her excitement growing with

every passing second.

Slowly I began to penetrate her, but I still had her legs pinned

so she couldn't move to thrust against me. Gently I pushed into her,

prolonging her rapture as well as my own, until I was finally buried

all the way in. I leaned forward and kissed her and released my hold

on her legs. She began to move in time with my thrusts as I made love

to her. Closing my eyes, I could almost feel Marie returning my kiss.

Her lips became less responsive to mine as my pumping continued.

"Yes, oh yes," she began to cry out as her vagina pulsed around

me. I couldn't hold back as she milked a load of hot cum deep into

her. I collapsed onto her limp body and as we lay there for a long

moment I could feel her heart beating hard against my chest. "I love

you," I whispered into her hair.

After catching her breath, she began to kiss my ear. "That was

incredible Mark, but I hope you're not done yet."

I was so startled that I barely noticed when she pushed me off of

her and onto the floor. She crawled off the bed onto me, and kissed me

deep. I was almost lost in her when she pulled off me and stared deep

into my eyes. "You know ... nobody's ever ... Glenn doesn't like going

down on me." I started to reply, but she just put a finger up to my

mouth. "That's why I never do this for him," she said as she began to

kiss my chest, then my belly, then my penis. Her lips revived me

quickly, and my dick stood straight up at attention. She rewarded me

by taking my balls into her mouth and sucking them like candy.

"Yes, yes" I moaned, desperately wanting to fuck her mouth. "Not

yet," she replied, turning my game around. "Sit down on the bed."

Mesmerized, I responded, pulling myself up to the edge of the

bed, with her head between my spread legs. She smothered my crotch

with light kisses, until I was nearly lost in passion. "Pamela" I

moaned, as I ran my hands through her long hair. I would almost feel

her smile as she took my rod between her lips and began to slowly take

my manhood into her face. I gasped when my head touched the back of

her mouth, but she started to pull off me. Slowly she began to make

love to me; each time she took me deeper and deeper until my head was

touching the back of her throat. I placed both hands firmly on the

back of her head, intending to fuck her face, but she had other plans.

Pamela pushed my arms off and resumed her rhythm, taking my staff into

her throat, the gentle cadence of her mouth pushing me closer to

heaven.

Suddenly she stopped, and I looked down to see her look back me

with a knowing grin. "I've always wanted to do this," she said as she

smiled and pulled herself up to a kneeling position, with her chest up

to the level of my penis. It was wet with her saliva, so when she

wrapped her tits around it, she was able to slide her chest

effortlessly. I closed my eyes and let myself get lost in the slow

hydraulic stimulation. She paused as the head of my dick pressed

against her heart before reversing her direction.

"Oh my god!" I cried out, as the breasts that had been so

wonderful to suck on were now sliding up and down my shaft.

Dual shivers flew up and down my spine in time with both her

lunges and her heartbeat. The subtle gestures pushed me deeper into

excstasy - I swear I could feel every pore of her chest rub against my

pole.

The only thing that pulled me out of my reverie was the sounds of

Pam's passion. I opened my eyes and looked down and saw the mirror of

my state. Her eyes were closed and her head was tossed back, she was

bouncing up and down at a frantic rate, moaning in desire. Her cries

came to an incendiary peak as we both climaxed. She hugged my dick

tight to her chest as I exploded all over her neck and chest.

*****

It's been almost two years since that day, and although we've had

a few difficulties along the way, Pam agreed to marry me in the fall.

Reflecting on things, it was probably inevitable. I've always cared

for her dearly, and after everything we'd shared over the years we

just had to be there for each other then, when we each needed it most.

No, let's be honest. Even though we finally found each other, it

wasn't the other we needed that night, but someone ... anyone. You

see, we talk about everything, we always have ... except we never talk

about that first time together. Not about Glenn or Marie, not about

that night, and never ever about that morning.

I know I'll never bring it up. It's not that I don't ever think

about it. In fact I can remember every detail of that morning

... almost. For some reason, I can never seem to remember her face

with any clarity. Sometimes I can distinctly recall the sharp angle of

Marie's cheekbone, other times it's Pam's soft eyes that I see.

I know she will never bring it up. She heard me when I moaned out

Marie's name - I heard the hesitation in her voice. But that's not

all. At the very end, as I was cumming for the second time, I was

watching her very closely (and this part above all others is very

clear in my mind) I could swear that I saw her mouth silently, "I love

you Glenn."