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About Mary-Jane

By Orestes

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Growing tip #1: Control your environment, or it will control

you.

Nike. Tommy. DKNY. I watched them all float in through

the doors of the classroom without a care. No, this wasn't a

college classroom at all... this was a fashion show. They

laughed and mingled. Their pet cell phones rang incessantly.

They set up their two-thousand dollar laptops to take notes

that, frankly, wouldn't be worth writing on paper.

So why was I there, copying the professor's notes onto

the white-boards, hoping that no one would notice that the

second-hand pants I was wearing were a few inches too short

and frayed on the cuffs ?

I was here, playing teacher's aid for a second rate

professor, because I didn't have daddy's money to spend. I

was here by the grace of the student loan program, to which

I had pledged my eternal soul in return for a Masters degree

in horticulture. It was a distinction which, due to the

rising price of natural gas, would soon be as valuable as a

deep fryer certificate from McDonalds university.

I hoped the greenhouse industry would see a turn-around

in the next year. Otherwise, my remaining career options

might consist of spending the next ten semesters in

indentured servitude teaching at a community college just

like this one. I'd be the second -rate professor in this

classroom, and I'd hate every moment of it.

It was all pretty hard to swallow, and was made even more

difficult by my immersion in this world of first year

students, flush with parental money and still riding their

morning caffeine high, courtesy of the local Starbucks.

Meanwhile, my nostrils were filled with the false-fruity

scents of the dry-erase markers, while I struggled to

decipher the cryptic notes of Professor Anders. He was late

in arriving as usual.

I, on the other hand, was always on time. I maintained a

high GPA. I tried to do the right things, but it never

seemed to quite work out. Even with Jamie... it had been

wasted effort trying to keep her happy. I struggled to buy

her things on my limited resources. I worked to find enough

time for a relationship. When things were falling apart, I

tried to bribe her into staying with expensive jewellery.

But it wasn't the money. I should have known it. Jamie

just didn't want to hang on to me while I sunk. I really

can't blame her, I suppose, although I've been known to

explore contrary sentiments when drinking with friends. And

now, the first fourty-two dollars of my monthly stipend went

to pay for a ring that she won't wear anymore, and I was too

stupid to ask her to return.

Again, I was just trying to do the right thing. For all

the good it had done me so far...



So when the opportunity came to do the wrong thing, it

felt pretty damned good to surrender to my instincts. Okay,

so I'm a guy, and I'll admit that my penis may have had a

say in this particular decision.

This girl had always caught my eye. She was Vietnamese. I

could tell by her last name on the student list. She didn't

really even speak much English, which made her seem a little

vulnerable amongst the other students. I mean, sure, she

dressed better than most, and drove a beautiful little car,

and laughed along with their jokes, but she wasn't really

one of them.

I could tell she didn't get it. She didn't understand the

course material. She had probably floated along in high

school on her good looks, and her bright, mischievous smile.

It was a smile that stopped the world. It floored me every

time.

So I found myself giving the girl extra class time to

help her catch up, even though I knew that she would never

pass the course. She flirted with me in return. It was

something she did naturally, as part of her innate sex

appeal. I never thought she was really interested.

Then she asked me something that made the hair on my neck

stand on end.

" I have some plants at home, " she whispered to me one

day, when I was close enough to smell the spice of her

perfume, " but they're not doing so good. Can you come over

and help me with them ?"

Which, of course, I absolutely knew that I shouldn't

consider. The girl was four years my junior, and, by my

current assessment, wasn't terribly bright. I'd just be

leading her on. Not to mention that my father would kill me

if her found out that I was dating an oriental girl.

I should probably have done the right thing, but another

part of me made excuses. We don't have to be intellectually

compatible. It doesn't have to be a long-term relationship.

My parents don't have to know, I told myself. She would just

be a guilty pleasure... a reward for years of relative

virtue on my part. Besides, the way she smiled at me while

my heart fluttered in my chest - you know, that bright,

mischievous smile - I'm pretty sure I couldn't have refused

her if I wanted to.

So, minutes after the class was over, I was leaving

campus as a passenger in her little European sports car.

It felt really weird to be leaving in the middle of the

day. Normally, I would have caught a bus back to university

campus to catch my afternoon classes, and wouldn't have

arrived home until late. This break in the routine was an

unexpected liberation. Ashley's driving was yet another

adventure. She was quick around corners, and impatient to

pass, but what really surprised me was how easily she

mastered the vehicle.

She wasn't timid behind the wheel. In contrast to her

meek, awkward demeanour in the academic environment, out

here, she was in complete control. My heart raced along with

the car's engine. By the time we pulled into the driveway of

a quiet suburban home, my opinion of Ashley was shifting.

There was more to this girl than I had imagined. I just

didn't yet know exactly what it was.

" Nice neighbourhood, " I commented. Ashley looked down

the street as if this was the first time she had really paid

attention.

" I guess so, " she shrugged.

" This is your parent's place ?"

She shrugged again.

Inside, I puzzled at the lack of furnishings. Upstairs

was all but empty. A few lamps were set up, and some second-

hand furniture littered the corners of the rooms, but

otherwise, it looked entirely abandoned.

" You want some beer, yes. " It wasn't so much a question

as a statement. She fetched me a beer from the fridge.

" I'm a little confused, " I admitted.

" Downstairs, " she answered, and led the way.

She paused to disarm an alarm system, and unlock the

outer door to the basement. Only then did I understand why

she was so eager for me to have a look at her sick plants.

Marijuana.

I should have known. In my province, it's a cottage

industry. If I had been thinking at all, I would have

remembered that much of the supply came from Vietnamese

organized crime.

As it was, I just stood there dumbfounded, taking in the

details of the scene before me.

Strangely, it reminded me of a Christmas tree stand. The

plants stretched upright beneath the orange glow of the

precariously strung sodium lamps. Silver mylar film lined

the walls, adding a hint of tinsel to the festive display.

I held my beer stupidly as Ashley took me by the hand and

led me into the room.

That's when the smell hit me. I don't know what I was

expecting. It wasn't the scent of pot being smoked. It

wasn't the potent skunky odour I had heard so often about.

It just smelled ... heavy... like chlorophyll, but with a

strange musk in it. I can't really describe it.

" See, the leaves are sick... and all the babies are

dying..."

It was no wonder. The temperature in this room was out of

control. There was next to no air circulation. And the

'babies', or cuttings, were buried to the lower leaves in

soaking wet peat moss.

" This is..." I began. I wanted to tell her all of the

things she was doing wrong, but she wouldn't have understood

anyhow. Having worked with her in class, I knew she wouldn't

get it. It would be a waste of breath.

" I can't help you..." I tried to withdraw. " It's too

much of a risk. "

" Nobody knows. Just this one time, okay. "

Nearby, there was a pile of unused equipment. Fans. Light

movers. Timers.

" You just need to set this up properly. I mean, you need

to get some air in here, and..."

And she had me so easily. She didn't have to lift a

finger. It was like letting a hacker loose in an electronics

store. Inevitably, I found myself wiring up the equipment,

adjusting the lights, spraying the plants, and taking a new

set of cuttings. By the time I turned my attention to Ashley

again, two hours had passed.

She brought me another beer and began to undress.

" What are you doing ?"

The Vietnamese girl smiled, knowing that she didn't

really need to explain. This was my reward for helping her

out. She pulled off her blouse, and then unbuckled her belt.

I took a swallow of beer, trying to act more casual than I

felt. Inside, my heart was aching in anticipation of her

silky flesh.

She squirmed out of her jeans, and stood there in her bra

and an oddly fashionable pair of boxer shorts.

" Upstairs ?" she asked, but we never made it out of the

grow room.

Growing tip #2: These plants can handle a fair amount of

heat. So you push it. More lamps mean more bud. You try to

convince yourself that you can manage the extra heat. Don't

be a jackass. It's too fucking hot, and you know it.

I scolded myself for having feelings that weren't

rightfully mine. I wasn't entitled to feel protective, or

jealous, or really much of anything towards Ashley.

" I told my boyfriend about you - and he was angry. But

he okay now, " she told me, explaining the bruised eye that

she had worn to school that day.

Boyfriend ? This was the first I'd heard about it. Of

course, I'd never asked. We didn't do much talking. I worked

in the grow room, then we had sex. Over the course of the

weeks I had spent with her, I had wrestled with my morals

about these illicit activities. Yes, it was all morally

wrong. Why should it make any difference that she had a

boyfriend ?

I wasn't even entitled to ask for answers. She was using

me. I was using her. It was a simple exchange, and I would

be better off if I just kept it that way. It didn't matter

how I felt about some lowlife coward who would beat on his

girlfriend. It was none of my business.

" So we're done then ?"

" No. I told you... he okay now. He was mad that I show

you his plants. But now he sees how good they grow, and he

doesn't mind so much. So you still come over. "

These days, my mind rarely wandered away from that

basement room. I don't know what combination of intoxicants

had captured my imagination so thoroughly. Was it the sex ?

Maybe. The excitement of the illegal activity ? Yes, there

was some of that. However, there was something about the

plants themselves that had an allure for me.

In my years of schooling, I had visited commercial

operations of every scale. I envied those men who operated

the large-scale hothouses. It was what I was born to do.

They put to the test every bit of knowledge that was

collecting dust in my brain. They could see, and feel, and

smell their successes.

I ached for that feeling.

Yet even in the greenhouse industry, there was

compromise. They traded away optimum growing conditions for

the economics of the marketplace. There was only so much of

a premium that the market would bear for hothouse produce,

when field-grown alternatives were such a viable

alternative.

With these plants, there was no compromise. The economics

were simple. Every pound of dried flower bud was worth

thousands of dollars. Increasing that yield, by any means,

would be worth the extra input costs. Electricity. Natural

gas for CO2 enrichment. Equipment worth thousands of

dollars. They all disappeared when compared to the eventual

selling price of BC bud.

There was a strange exotic beauty to these plants. When

Ashley invited me to have sex there amongst them, all of my

senses were filled. The slender leaves cast their dappled

shadows upon her perfect body. The warmth of the air flowed

over us, and the scent of the plant was everywhere. But the

taste was all Ashley.

Even though everything sane within me warned me to back

away, I couldn't give it up. Not yet. Before the afternoon

was over, I had skipped another day of school in favour of

our hidden garden, and the taste of Ashley's body.

At first, sex with Ashley had been very one-sided. It

seemed that Ashley took the submissive role by habit, and in

the beginning, I had been content with it. The way she used

her lips around my cock and worshipped my balls, before

expertly mounting me and using every move of her lithe body

to coax me to orgasm, well, it made me feel like a king.

Ashley didn't even consider her own pleasure.

But as much as I tried to enjoy these self-indulgent

sessions, I guess I felt a bit guilty. It was probably

unnecessary. Ashley certainly didn't expect to be treated

like my other girlfriends had. In fact, when I paid

attention to her body, it seemed like she was just allowing

me to touch her for my own gratification.

I probably should have accepted it. We were never going

to be in a real 'relationship'. We were just too different.

I'd never be able to see her as my intellectual equal. I

should have just accepted it as raw, guilty sex with some

Vietnamese gang-girl, and left it at that.

But I over-think things. Being a selfish lover wasn't

something I could accept in myself. And maybe, despite all

my best efforts, I was beginning to have feelings for her. I

wanted to see her sexual needs satisfied too. When my lips

reached the inside of her thighs that first time, she didn't

seem certain what to do. She tensed, and I paused.

" Is this okay ?" I asked.

" I guess so ... I just... well, none of my boyfriends

have wanted to do this. They think it's unmanly. "

I couldn't believe that no one had ever given this girl

the pleasure that she deserved. God, she was beautiful, and

when I tasted her, her body reacted immediately. She pushed

her almost hairless crotch into my nose involuntarily, and

gave out a little squeal.

I toyed with the sensitive flesh of her pussy, enjoying

the way her tiny asian body reacted to my movements. Her

flavour was exotic, like the dark leaves of the plants that

towered above us.

She was so sensitive to the touch of my tongue that she

came within a couple of minutes. I held her in place by the

hips as she writhed through her climax.

" Oh no, please stop... it's too much..." she begged me

finally.

That had been in the first week. By the time I learned

about her boyfriend, the taste of her pussy had become a

part of every session. Ashley was no longer shy about her

own pleasure. In fact, it seemed that now that I had opened

the door, she was anxious to explore these new feelings.

These days, she waited somewhat impatiently for me to finish

with the plants, and had her jeans and underwear pulled down

to her knees by the time I had my tools put away.

I guess I didn't mind indulging her, even if it did come

at the expense of my own pleasure to some extent. She no

longer spent the time to worship my cock with her mouth. She

was always anxious to get my face between her legs.

If I wanted intercourse, she would oblige, but she

surprised me by insisting that I give her oral sex

afterwards. I have to admit that I was reluctant. Who was I

kidding though ? I was wrapped around Ashley's little

finger.

Once I got going, it wasn't so bad. I tried to ignore the

added flavour to her used pussy. Ashley absolutely loved it.

" Oh, yeah... lick me good and clean, Blondie. "

Blondie was what she called me instead of my real name. I

guess it didn't matter. We didn't do much talking anyhow.

Besides, it wasn't like Ashley was *her* real name. It was

probably just an easier version of her given name for white

people to remember.

So, like I said, by the time I even knew she had a

boyfriend, Ashley was accustomed to relying on me for her

sexual release. I wondered what kind of a brute this guy

was, to refuse his girlfriend any pleasure from sex. From

the way Ashley had treated me when we first got together, I

had some idea of how he expected her to behave - as a

submissive sex object.

My dislike for the guy went past his treatment of Ashley.

I mean, these were his plants. The way the room was set up,

it was clear that he didn't know a bloody thing about

growing. He had just thrown in the plants and the lights,

and hoped for the best. When things began to go wrong, he

had left Ashley to take care of them. When the yield turned

out to be low, no doubt he would have blamed the girl, and

given her another black eye or worse.

And so I was fixing things for her. She purchased the

supplies, and I made the plants healthy. In the end,

however, it would be her boyfriend who walked in and took

all the profit.

As much as I resented him, I couldn't bring myself to

leave. The days in our artificial world grew shorter.

Outside, it was spring, but indoors, I was giving the plants

the autumn they needed to induce them to bloom. I reduced

the day length to twelve hours, and watched as the shortened

photoperiod pushed the plants into reproductive overdrive.

Even while the days got shorter, my dirty sessions with

Ashley lengthened. She liked to have me massage her body to

begin. I would undress her slowly, caressing her feet with a

tenderness that betrayed my growing feelings for the girl.

Between the dark plants, growing heavy with flower buds, and

the taste of her flesh, I was missing more school than I

cared to think about.

I would kiss the insides of her legs, and suckle at her

pointed nipples to get her into the mood. Sometimes, she

liked me to play with her ass for while, teasing her shapely

rear with my lips before pushing my tongue into her tight

hole.

Yes, I felt dirty. It was as shameful a thing as I'd ever

imagined. But here, it felt right. Everything here was

illicit and shameful. Christ, she wasn't even my own

girlfriend. I got a rush just thinking about it all.

And when she was satisfied with the attention to her ass,

and was ready for her pussy to be serviced, she rolled over

and pulled my head into position. She didn't really let me

cum these days. Between all of the massaging and

worshipping, I guess we just didn't find time. If I tasted

semen on her pussy, I knew that it wasn't mine, but was

leftover from the rough, demanding sex of her boyfriend.

On those days, I think she enjoyed her orgasm most. I'm

sure the contrast between her two lovers was a source of

excitement for her. She pushed her sloppy crotch against my

lips, and pulled at my hair demandingly.

Ashley talked to herself in Vietnamese through these

orgasms, only breaking into English to give new commands.

" No, Blondie, deep now... fuck... taste it all... suck

me good..."

And then she would slip back into her native language.

Once I was accustomed to it, I was surprised by what a

sexual charge I got out of these disturbingly one-sided

sessions.

In the final few days before the plants were ready to be

harvested, Ashley told me that her boyfriend was growing

impatient and paranoid.

" He doesn't want you here any more... "

I felt like I'd been kicked in the stomach. These plants

were my life right now. And Ashley...

" Oh, poor Blondie... you so sad, " she tried to sound

sympathetic, but instead, came off as a little

condescending. " Don't start crying now. Tell you what...

come over to my Auntie's house next Wednesday... you and I

can still have fun... and maybe you can have a look at

Uncle's plants..."

She kissed me on the cheek, like I was a lost little boy,

and let out a little giggle.

I resented the hell out of her for that. I found myself

stewing over the way she took me for granted. I had saved

her ass. I had given every bit of pleasure she had asked

for. And in the end, she patted me on the head, and sent me

on my way, while her boyfriend came in and profited from my

work. My plants. Yeah, I resented the hell out of the whole

situation, myself most of all for going along with it... for

the feelings that I couldn't control, even though it was

obvious that Ashley would never return my affection.

In the week that followed, I resisted the temptation to

call her. It would just make me seem even more pathetic. I

tried, instead, to catch up on some of my schoolwork, but I

couldn't keep my mind on it.

When Wednesday came around, I swore to myself that I

wouldn't show up at her Auntie's house. I knew that Ashley

would just use me again. It was the premise of our whole

relationship.

Then, as the evening crept up on me, I felt hungry for

just one more taste of her body, and I knew I wouldn't be

able to resist.

Being used wasn't so bad... as long as I knew what I was

getting into...

I knocked gently on the door. Ashley answered.

" You late tonight, " she scolded me. " My Auntie don't

like late visitors. "

" Sorry, I..."

She led me in. The house held the scents of asian

cooking. I could smell the spices in the air. Ashley led me

quietly through the darkened hallways into her cluttered

room. Here, with clothing and CD's strewn over the floor,

Ashley seemed much more the teenage girl than I guess I had

allowed myself to accept her as. On her wall, she had tacked

up pictures of her friends. I paused there, and finally

found a picture of her boyfriend, a young guy with

sunglasses and a too-tough expression on his face.

" Come on, " she urged, already half way out of her

clothing.

All of my hurt feelings disappeared as I crawled between

her thighs, and took in a breath of her perfume. Ashley

urged me onwards with every move of her body, and I obliged

her, soon revelling in the familiar taste of her body. In

this setting, she tasted young and sweet, but far from

innocent.

A sound from the hallways startled me, but Ashley kept me

on task with a firm grip of my hair. Only when the door to

her room actually opened did she react. She released my face

and began to cover herself, but a sharp command in

Vietnamese ordered her back into position. It was a male

voice. My heart almost stopped beating.

For the first time since I began breaking the rules, I

felt the consequences catching up with me. It was Ashley's

boyfriend at the door, and he sounded angry. Of course he

was angry. Fuck, I had my face buried between his teen aged

girlfriend's thighs.

His words cut through the air with an acid that sizzled

through the language barrier.

" He wants you to keep going, " Ashley whispered,

interpreting his commands for me. Despite the translation, I

still wasn't sure I understood. Did he really want me to

continue licking her pussy ?

" He's drunk. And he's pissed off. And he think it's

funny that a guy would do this for a girl, " she explained.

Great. So the fact that he was drunk and amused at this

moment was the only thing that was stopping Ashley's gang-

member boyfriend from cutting my throat. That was a great

relief.

He laughed bitterly from the doorway, and made comments

to his girlfriend in his native language. The tone of her

answers told me that she was agreeing with him, placating

him, echoing his amusement. Despite the fact that I knew she

was just doing her best to save both of our asses, it stung

a little when she laughed at his jokes about me.

Then things became serious again, as his voice raised,

and his language became more lively.

" He thinks you're a sissy... pathetic, he calls you...

and all sorts of names, but it's not enough. He say that he

should kill you for screwing me, but I keep on telling him

that you don't screw me... you just lick... but he doesn't

believe me. Tell him you're a sissy white boy, and you only

like to lick me..."

" I'm a sissy..." I gasped, not knowing if he would even

understand my lies, " I don't fuck your girlfriend... I'm

not man enough... I just like to lick her..."

His voice rose in anger again.

" He says he should kill you now for lying. He's telling

you to take off your jeans... he wants you to fuck me in

front of him... oh, Blondie... he'll kill you..."

He pulled me up by my hair, and shouted the command

again. I didn't have much of a choice. If I didn't do what

he said now, he'd probably kill me right away. I had no idea

if this guy was armed.

I pulled down my jeans and underwear, and for the first

time in a couple of weeks, I knelt between Ashley's perfect

legs, and prepared to enter her. Except that I couldn't. Not

that I wasn't turned on enough. Riding this girl's body to

orgasm had been my constant fantasy since I met her. Her

taste was still warm on my tongue.

God, I wanted her, but I was limp. My tool flopped

uselessly against her entrance, while I proved true all of

the insults hurled at me in the preceding minutes. Pathetic.

Sissy. Girly.

The gang member reached around me, and fondled my cock

roughly, insisting that I was faking my difficulties

entering Ashley. Once he had the full weight of my cock

cupped in his hand, his anger faded again. He laughed and

hurled more insults in his language.

" This is much better... if you keep acting like a sissy,

he might let you live... now he wants you to lick me some

more..."

I squirmed back down on the bed, anxious to do anything

to convince this guy how unmanly I really was. My face

burned with shame while Ashley unnecessarily translated some

of his mirth about my failed erection.

" He says you really are like a girl, with little parts,

and smooth skin. He says your penis is like a sponge...

squeeze it and it disappears..."

His hands knew no boundaries. He touched my cock freely

now, and slapped my bare ass while I tried to please his

girlfriend with my tongue.

" He says you have pale skin like a baby girl..."

I didn't like the comparison much, but my mind was on

other things. His roaming hands were kneading my ass now. I

felt the mattress shift as he crawled up onto the bed behind

me. It didn't take a genius to know what would happen next.

I began to protest, but Ashley urged me to silence. "

Shhh... be a good sissy for him, and he won't be as angry...

show him that you're not a threat..."

Laying there with my ass exposed, a thousand thoughts

passed through my mind. This was the perfect completion to

my foray into the world of the forbidden. I was wrong for

pursuing Ashley. I was wrong to break the law. I was wrong

to ignore my schoolwork. For the first time in my life, I

was doing all of the wrong things, and while they had felt

good at the time, now, here I was, bent over like a naughty

schoolgirl, ready to take the strap on my ass.

All of those thoughts disappeared when his prick began to

insist its way between my ass cheeks. Ashley cooed for me to

submit, as much for her own sake as mine.

" Good... let him in... it's only for a little while...

show him how unmanly you are... let him fuck you like a

white girl..."

Which was all easier said than done. He jabbed his

frustrated organ against me, and spit repeatedly between my

ass cheeks to lubricate my rear hole. I whimpered in pain as

he forced the unwelcome flesh up into me.

" Just a little more... just a tiny bit more..." Ashley

chanted. I wasn't sure if she was talking about his progress

in impaling me, or her own impending orgasm. As it turned

out, the completion of both events happened at the same

time. Just as I felt his cock hit home, Ashley's body rocked

in climax.

" Good... sissy... Blondie..." she grunted her orgasm,

mashing her crotch into my tongue.

Her boyfriend took much longer, and it got no easier.

Ashley watched silent now, while he slammed his frustrations

into my abused anus. I could feel his breath quickening

against my shoulders, and his balls slapping against my

rear.

I imagined he was fucking my ass in revenge for all of

the racial slurs he had ever been the target of, and all of

the white girls who had never given him a second glance. He

gave me no sympathy when I cried out. Ashley watched with

interest, her legs still positioned on either side of my

head. Finally, he pushed his quaking body into me, and

deposited his cum inside.

He grunted words in his own language that Ashley didn't

need to translate for me. I got the idea. He was saying, '

I'm cumming in your ass, you cunt licking white sissy..."

And I deserved every moment of it, just for agreeing to

play this game.

Growing tip #3: Marijuana doesn't force you to love it. It

invites. It entices. Unlike other widely available drugs, it

isn't physically addictive. Nonetheless, it can capture a

soul just as easily. If you want to grow the plant

successfully, there's no reason to fight it. Drink in all of

the details. Interact with the plants. Live with them.

Surrender to them.

I spent the weekend drinking with university friends.

" It's a shame about you and Jamie, " Shane approached

the subject with caution. The amount of school I had been

missing, it was bound to look like I was still sore from the

break-up.

I almost laughed. No one could know how far that

relationship had drifted from my mind. It was like a

different world.

No, I wasn't sore from the break-up. I was sore from

being fucked in the ass. I was hurt by the way Ashley had

begged me accept the abuse. I was upset by the way she had

watched, and even enjoyed an orgasm while her boyfriend

emasculated me. Then, when he was done with me, she had

taken him into her arms, and kissed him, and assured him

that she belonged to him.

Not me.

I don't really know why I even cared what Shane thought.

He was a bit of an intellectual bully. He liked to wax

philosophic in foreign languages when drinking with friends,

and I was the only guy who always told him he was full of

shit.

" No man, I'm not worried about Jamie. I guess we all

knew it was coming. You even tried to warn me a couple of

times. "

" That I did, my friend. "

" But no... I've already hooked up with another girl. "

" Bullshit. Who is she ?"

" Her name is Mary-Jane, " I named her on the spot. It

popped out so naturally, I even surprised myself. There was

no chance I was going to tell him about Ashley.

" Mary-Jane ? No kidding... like from the Spiderman

comics ?"

Not exactly the literary reference I expected from him. I

almost spit out my beer, it cracked me up so bad. "Yeah, I

guess so... like Spiderman's girlfriend. "

" Well, way to go Spidey, " he raised his glass in a

toast.

By the time we were done drinking, Shane had no idea

whether Mary-Jane was real or not. Neither did I.

When I woke up the following morning, it took me a good

long while to sort out my head, and for a few minutes while

I was still spinning in my bead, I forgot how much my life

had changed in the last three months.

Three months. I had to look at a calendar to convince

myself of it. It's weird, the way I had fooled my own mind.

I knew the amount of time it took me to nurse those plants

back to health. I knew that once I had shortened the day

length for the plants, it had taken over six weeks for the

flower buds to ripen. I had logged it carefully in a spare

notebook. All this time, I had spent in our hidden garden,

the taste of Ashley's body never far from my lips, and

somehow, I guess I had just expected time to suspend itself

for me in the outside world.

Hell, I had just pushed any thought about it to the side,

along with my feelings of morality and shame.

My real life caught up with me with the ferocity of a

lover scorned. I could still feel the alcohol tugging at the

corners of my brain when I stepped out of the shower and

dressed for a meeting with my academic advisor. I tucked the

eviction notice from my landlord into my jacket pocket. If I

was lucky, I'd be able to squeeze another payment out of the

student loan program, and delay it all for one more month.

As it was, Janice fucked me up the ass much more brutally

than Ashley's boyfriend had.

" It seems you've had some difficulty meeting your

obligations as a teaching assistant recently, " she began,

with only a trace of sympathy. Her voice was colder than I'd

ever heard it.

" Well, yeah... I mean, I've been sick lately, and I've

missed a few classes. "

" More than a few, " she corrected me. " I'm afraid the

college is going to have to withhold payment. "

Mmmff!

" Your schoolwork has slipped too, " she paused. " Do you

want to tell me what's happening with you ?"

Somehow, I doubted that I could make a case that three

months of growing pot and learning how to properly lick the

ass of a cute Vietnamese girl was a wise academic choice. I

shook my head meekly.

She was losing patience with me. Janice used to believe

in me. I was one of her kids. Jamie was too. In fact, it was

largely through her matronly interference that we had become

a couple. Every few of weeks, I would make an appearance in

her office, and let her uncomfortably probe my personal

life. She wanted to know about my family, and about Jamie,

and would talk endlessly about her favourite poets. In fact,

about the only thing we didn't talk about was my education.

Then, when our meetings were nearing an end, she would

give me a wink, and tell me not to worry about money

problems... that she would take care of the whole thing. I

was in her care.

Not anymore. I could feel it. I had done the only thing

that was unforgivable to the woman. I had shut her out.

" Look... I can see that you're having trouble right now,

" her tone reminded me of the condescending manner I had so

recently absorbed from Ashley, and I knew that another ass

fucking was certain to come at any moment. " I think it's

best for everyone involved if we simply declare this

semester a write-off, and begin fresh in the fall. We can

discuss funding options at that time. "

" But I..." my voice halted.

" Yes ?"

I pulled the crumpled eviction notice from my jacket

pocket and began to speak, but I already knew that it was

useless. " I've fallen a little behind on my rent payments.

I just need to get caught up a bit. "

" All the more reason you should call it quits for this

semester. You can't keep up. This will give you an early

start on the summer job hunt, and by the time fall comes,

maybe you'll be a little more caught up. "

She knew exactly what she was sentencing me to. It would

be six months hard labour at a minimum wage job. It would

barely be enough to pay the rent. Then, I'd be right back

here at Janice's desk again, begging for a government

handout to complete my education.

I felt sick.

That night, I sat beside a phone in the apartment that

wasn't really mine anymore. I had two phone numbers set out

in front of me. One was on a neat card from the University's

counselling department. In our early days together, Janice

had written her home number across the bottom. The other

number was scrawled on a crumpled bit of paper I had dug

through the trash to retrieve.

Calling either one was a surrender.

For Janice, the terms would include a confession. That's

what she wanted. She wanted me to throw myself on her mercy.

Then, after some pleading and crying, she would take me back

into her protection, and talk to my teachers, and make

everything better.

It would have to be a full confession. My blood ran cold

at the thought of it. She would listen with gleeful

disapproval while I related my story. She would want all of

the details, and it would be no use trying to lie to her..

When I held the other number in front of me, my hands

trembled with a queer sort of anticipation. It would be a

different kind of surrender. The pager number would deliver

me back into Ashley's dark world of depravity and

immorality. It was an escape from my current reality.

Reality. That was the irony of it all. My real life

didn't feel quite so real. It was all concept and intellect,

with none of the flavour and texture that Ashley's world

offered. There, I lived for the touch of real plants... not

their conceptual counterparts on the pages of a book. I

loved everything about them. They were my second lover.

Mary-Jane.

And Ashley was so real, it made my heart ache to think of

her. She wasn't mine, but she was real, and I loved the

taste of her body... even the taste of humiliation when she

used me without regard to my feelings. There was nothing

fake about her selfishness. It was one-hundred percent real,

and it aroused me just thinking about it.

I could pretend to be sorry for what I did. Janice would

love to see me beg forgiveness. Then I'd be back to my

"real" life.

To tell the truth, it wasn't much of a choice.

Growing tip # 4: Cannabis is a diecious species, meaning

that each individual plant is either male or female. When it

comes to drug production, it's the female plants that

matter. The males are useless.

Ashley showed me to my room. Or rather, I should say, to

her room.

" We're getting good money from the plants, and so my

boyfriend wants me to move in with him... so you can stay

here at my old room in Auntie's house, " she explained. "

Maybe if you do good with Uncle's plants, we give you some

money too. "

Some of her old clothing was still strewn about the

floor. I don't suppose they mattered to her. She would just

buy new clothes. The walls were covered in teen magazine

posters and pictures of her friends. The cramped room

smelled of Ashley's perfume. I stood above the little bed,

and tried to push from my mind the abuse I had last received

there.

" My boyfriend is not angry now. He knows you not really

a man, so he's okay..."

I was glad of that. At least he wouldn't need to prove

anything more to him.

" So when you stay here, you do some chores for Auntie

and Uncle, so you can stay for free. "

I nodded. Any price was worth paying as a temporary

reprieve from my own life, and for a chance to be with

Ashley. Despite the rape of my ass on this very bed, my mind

replayed the scenes endlessly, and I longed to be used by

her again.

She wasn't taking off her clothes. She looked delicious

in a pair of overalls, and a baseball cap. Instead, she

called outside of the room in Vietnamese. An older female

answered, and a minute later, joined us in Ashley's tiny

room.

This was Auntie. She smiled widely when she met me, and

prodded Ashley with her elbow. They spoke a minute in

Vietnamese.

" She say she didn't expect you to be so cute. "

" Thanks, I guess. "

" Good. I tell her what you like to do for me, and she

wants you to do the same for her. Uncle is too manly to lick

her. "

My face went red. Ashley was apparently not bashful about

discussing sex in front of her Aunt. The woman grinned, and

wiped her hands on an apron. I guess she had been working on

a seafood dish for dinner, and carried some of the scents

with her from the kitchen.

" I leave now so that you can do it for her, " Ashley

told me, without asking. My desperate phone call had been

the final power shift in our relationship. I guess she

figured that any guy who would take it in the ass for her,

and still come crawling back was a total pushover. I had

trouble refuting the logic of that myself.

I was left staring at my feet awkwardly, while the asian

woman chatted away. It didn't matter that I didn't

understand her language. What she wanted was clear. First,

she circled me and appraised the gift her niece had given

her. In all, she seemed pleased.

Her hands reached for my belt. I took her cue, and began

to undress myself.

It was unlike any sexual situation I had ever been in.

Even when Ashley had taken charge completely, I had always

been aroused. This time, it was different. I wasn't exactly

aroused, or at least not in the same way. I was more

embarrassed by the scene. Auntie was a middle-aged woman,

and while not unattractive, she had none of the curves of

youth. She was thick in the belly, and wrinkled around the

eyes, and kept her hair short and permed, like wool on a

sheep.

The only thing she kept in common with her niece was a

bright smile, and even there, her teeth had yellowed with

age.

But I had been given to her, and she giggled with her

whole belly when I was down to my underwear. She couldn't

believe her luck. I could tell from the furnishings in her

house that her family wasn't particularly wealthy. If drug

money had come into her household, it probably wasn't until

just recently. Now, here she was, a middle-aged, lower-

middle-class immigrant housewife, and she had a cute white

college boy as her new plaything.

I let her play with my cock through the fabric of my

underwear, and to my shame, it hardened in her hand. The

whole situation was just too weird. She was still fully

dressed, and touching me any way she pleased.

Finally, she decided to try out the feature of her new

toy that Ashley had seemingly told her the most about. She

climbed up onto the bed, and made herself comfortable. She

unbuckled her loose pants, but left the task of removing

them to me.

I paused for a minute there, not sure I could go through

with it. My body trembled with indecision as I crawled onto

the bed with her.

" You lick, Blondie, " she said her first words in

English to me. The moment of indecision passed, and I began

to help her out of her pants.

Auntie's thighs were thick and pale. Her hips were much

wider than Ashley's, and the panties she wore were unlike

the stylish little things Ashley bought to impress her

boyfriend. They were a large and practical, and made of a

shimmering beige material. She lifted her hips from the bed,

and allowed me to slide them down her legs.

Then I was faced with my task. She dug her heels into the

bed, and spread her legs wide, revealing herself fully to

me. Black hair spread from the heavy lips of her pussy to

lightly coat her entire crotch, and dipped down into the

crack of her ass.

I didn't pause to take in more details. If I was going to

do this, delaying would only make it more difficult. I

lowered my face between her waiting thighs, and was greeted

with an odour more pungent than my sweet Ashley. In fact,

everything about this woman's body was an exaggeration of

the younger girl's charms. The folds of her flesh were

heavier and looser, no doubt from bearing children who might

be my own age now. Her flavour was intense, and her pussy

drooled with excitement. She pushed her hairy crotch into me

insistently.

" Mmmmph, " I protested, as she took hold of my hair with

hands that still smelled of seafood, and pulled my mouth and

nose into her. I could barely breathe.

Luckily, much like her younger counterpart, she wasn't

accustomed to this kind of attention, and I could tell that

this first session wouldn't last long. I pushed into her

with my tongue, and smacked my lips against her swollen

clitoris, ignoring for a moment my need for oxygen.

Auntie's drooling pussy quaked against my mouth, and

encouraged, I continued my chore.

" Aaaaayaah.... Eeeeeeiiiy....." she groaned, humping my

face, and still holding me so tightly that I couldn't take a

full breath.

Her flabby thighs slapped against my ears. She shook

relentlessly towards her orgasm.

Only when my lungs were burning, and I was gasping and

gulping for air, did she release her climax on me. Her

juices hit the back of my throat unexpectedly. I'd never had

a girlfriend squirt into my mouth this way before, and I

choked and sputtered on the liquid.

After she was done, I stayed there, trying to catch my

breath. Her scent was all over my face. The hair on her

pussy and ass was caked down with her cum.

It felt so goddamned dirty and degrading to have lowered

myself into this position, but I had to admit that I was

much more aroused now than when we had started. I began to

lick the salty flesh around Auntie's satisfied pussy, and

even cleaned the crack of her ass from the cum that had

collected there.

" You good boy, Blondie, " she told me.

In the coming days, I was to find that these were some of

the very few words she could communicate to me with.

" Good boy, " she would tell me, when I was finished

doing the household laundry, or washing the dishes, or

cleaning the floor. By the time a week was over, she had

delegated almost all of her household tasks onto me.

But always in the early afternoon, before Uncle came home

from work, she would lead me back to Ashley's room, and

expect me to please her. It seemed like she had been talking

some more to Ashley, because as the days went by, she began

to demand the same sorts of treatment I had given the

younger girl. It would begin with caressing and massaging

her body. Then, she would want me to kiss and lick her ass,

sometimes for nearly a half hour, while she lay face down on

the bed with a pillow tucked under her pelvis, and groaned

her appreciation.

By the time I was allowed to bring her to orgasm, my

tongue was numb, and her pussy lips were sopping wet from

the extended foreplay.

If I closed my eyes, for a while I could pretend it was

Ashley's body, but the noises she made and the taste of her

body resisted my imagination. In the end, it was always

Auntie who stood beside the bed, and tied her apron back on,

and told me, " You a good boy, Blondie. "

It was at this time that a new cast of characters made

their way into my life. Ashley's Uncle was a grim looking

little man, who reminded me of pictures I had seen of Edgar

Allen Poe. In fact, in my own mind, I began to call him Poe,

and he had a melancholy demeanour that seemed to fit the

name. He had allowed his basement to be used to grown

Marijuana, but he didn't take an active role in cultivating

the plant.

The plants belonged to Cowboy. Poe seemed to view my

presence in his house as a concession to cowboy and his

friends, in return for a portion of the drug profits. cowboy

was an older guy, who I assigned his nickname by the way he

dressed. He wore ornate leather boots, jeans, and a belt

buckle straight off of the home-shopping-network.

It was clear that although I was left in Auntie's hands,

Cowboy was the one who granted her authority over me. Ashley

was one of his girls, and if I belonged to her, I belonged

to him.

Cowboy's entourage included another older guy who I

dubbed Andy Capp (it had something to do with a hat he was

wearing when I first saw him), and Ashley's boyfriend. The

three of them visited every few days to check up on the

plants.

It was a smaller-scale operation than the house that

Ashley's boyfriend had rented. Here, there were only six

lamps in operation, but they also expected me to produce

cuttings for their other grow rooms around town.

They watched me with a grudging admiration for my

apparent skills with the plant. cowboy was easily the most

experienced of the men, and even he seemed impressed by the

overall health of the young cuttings. I took a meticulous

approach to the task, recording growth rates and feeding

schedule in one of my school notepads.

" Stupid to keep notes, " was Cowboy's only comment.

" I'll be able to grow better plants this way, " I told

him, sure that the prospect of increased yields would

persuade him.

He shrugged.

My life came into a weird rhythm. In the morning, I would

visit the plants. I would adjust the lamp height, and check

the leaves for signs of disease or nutrient imbalance. I

would check the sticky traps for insects. I would record the

temperature and humidity, and check the soil for moisture.

Then, as noon approached, I would come upstairs and begin

my household duties. Usually, Auntie would be out shopping,

and I didn't see her until I was already finished most of my

housework. When she came back, I would begin the prep work

on dinner. She never actually let me cook, of course, but I

could do the chopping and start the rice cooker.

She would watch me for a while, and I'd begin the feel

the tension. It wouldn't be long now.

Just after three o'clock, she would tell me, " come on

Blondie, " and I would follow her sheepishly into Ashley's

bedroom, still decorated with posters from teen magazines

and littered with her remaining clothes. Then I would begin

my worship of her body.

Auntie took her time, stretching it out as close as she

could to four-thirty, so that she would have just enough

time to finish dinner before Poe came through the door.

Most nights, there would also be guests for dinner.

Auntie and Poe had two adult children who were in college.

The kids would come over for the night, and sometimes drop

off laundry, but usually didn't stay long. Sometimes, Ashley

and her boyfriend would be over. Andy and cowboy would bring

over their wives for dinner occasionally too.

Cowboy, who I sometimes called 'Duke', because of his

John Wayne swagger, had a tall, stern looking wife, who I

immediately began to call Duchess. Andy Capp's wife was a

contrast to the Duchess in many ways, although they seemed

to get along very well. Duchess seemed to lack humour.

Andy's wife spilled out with laughter, her tiny frame rarely

ceasing in the jiggles of her giggles. She was at least a

foot shorter than the Duchess, and I named her Mini.

On the days when the guests were around, especially when

Ashley was amongst them, I stayed nearby to serve dinner. It

was about the only chance I got to see her at all.

As anxious as I was to be around her, it seemed that

Ashley had pretty much forgotten about me. I was now

communal property. She seemed to enjoy special status

amongst the men, perhaps because she had so easily taken

control of me... but aside from that, she paid me little

attention.

On one of these evenings, the whole group was together

for dinner. Mini finished her first helping quickly. She

just seemed to do everything at a higher tempo than the

others. I fetched her another plate. The women laughed

together, and I knew that it was at my expense. From the way

the men looked at me, I could tell that they were amused by

the way I served the women too. Mini covered her food with

fish sauce, a condiment of Vietnamese cuisine that I found

revolting.

When the dinner was coming to a close, I began to clean

up for Auntie.

While I began the dishes, the men decided to leave for

the evening. I imagined that they were going out to check

out other grow rooms around town, or even to harvest some of

the finished product. Despite his protests, they convinced

Poe to come along. Ashley was invited with them too, which,

I took from her reaction, she was quite pleased about.

As the other men left, Ashley delayed for a moment, and

visited me in the kitchen.

" Everybody like having you around, Blondie, " she told

me. " You do real good. I even told the other girls what you

like to do for us, and I think they want to try it out. "

" But, the guys..."

" It's okay. They know *all* about you. As long as you

obey what the girls say, no problem with the guys."

I was still reluctant, but Ashley knew exactly how to

keep me in line.

" It's okay. I go with the guys right now, and maybe we

go do some drinking... then later, when I come back, if

you've do good with the other girls, I visit you tonight and

give you real good sex. It's okay ?"

She knew my answer before I did. My body telegraphed my

reaction to her words. She gave me that mischievous smile

that had won me from the beginning, and I knew that I'd do

pretty much anything for a chance to taste her body again.

Besides... it wasn't like the prospects of servicing Mini

and the Duchess was unpleasant. Compared to Auntie, they

were absolute knock-outs. Auntie tried her best, I suppose,

to fit in with the more affluent lifestyles of Ashley's new

friends, she was still firmly rooted in the lower-middle

class, and Poe didn't seem much motivated to change the

situation.

Once Ashley and the boys left, Auntie seemed anxious to

begin to show me off. She gave me a command in Vietnamese.

" She's telling you to take off your clothes, "

translated Duchess, in much better English than I would have

guessed. " That sounds so demanding. Ashley tells us that

you enjoy being treated badly by women. Or is it just asian

women ? What's your kink... Blondie ? "

It was the first question anyone had asked me in weeks. I

stumbled with the answer. " No... I mean... I don't have a

kink... I just... " my face went a deep shade of red.

" Articulate too. I thought Ashley said that you were

some sort of college professor. "

" Well, not really... I..."

" Obviously not. You can't even string a sentence

together. "

Auntie repeated her demand to me, seeming upset that I

wasn't showing off for her friends. Duchess didn't bother to

translate, but just watched me with a smug, superior

expression on her face.

Slowly, I began to undress for the women. Mini burst into

another set of giggles when I pulled off my T-shirt, and

began on my jeans.

" Pretty white boy, " she nudged the Duchess with her

elbow.

" He's not bad, " Duchess answered purposely in English.

" A little young for my tastes. He looks like a boy, not a

man. "

" A sissy boy, " Mini agreed with a giggle.

" He does have a cute ass, though, " admitted Duchess. "

Come over here, Blondie. Let my friend and I have a closer

look at your tight little ass. "

The way my face was burning, it was almost a relief to

turn away from the audience while they critiqued my ass. I

could feel Duchess' cool fingers brushing against the curve

of my ass. My cock twitched involuntarily. Sensing my

reaction, she pressed further, running her fingers up and

down the crack of my ass, finally resting her middle finger

against my rear hole.

" Mmmm... sensitive. I think he likes to have someone

play with his ass. Have you ever let anyone play with your

ass before, Blondie ?"

" Yes, " I admitted.

" Was it Ashley ?"

" No. "

" Hmmm... was it another girlfriend ?"

" No. "

" A boy. "

" I... uh... yes. "

Mini began laughing uncontrollably at my admission.

Auntie just watched the scene unfold as Duchess wriggled her

finger against my hole, and I allowed her to tease me

without mercy.

" Who was it ?"

Shit. It suddenly occurred to me that Ashley's boyfriend

probably wouldn't want Cowboy's wife to know about our

encounter. With the emphasis they put on macho behaviour, it

certainly wouldn't improve his image.

" No one, " I evaded.

<Crack> I yelped as the Duchess slapped my ass hard with

her free hand.

" Try again. "

" It was just a friend. "

" Isn't that sweet, Thuy ? He lets his all his good

friends fuck him in the ass. No wonder he's such a sissy. Do

you like my finger in your ass, Blondie ?"

" Yes, " I admitted. The humiliation of my answer only

intensified the sensations. Over the weeks of lowering

myself to servicing Auntie's body, I allowed myself to take

pleasure in my shame. Here and now, it was well beyond my

control.

" So you like to be fucked in the ass ? And what do you

do to earn your keep in this house ?"

" I tend to the plants. "

< Crack > The sting on my ass warned me that it wasn't

the answer she wanted.

" Sorry... I... well, I please Ashley's Auntie with my

tongue..."

" Keep going, " she told me, pushing her middle finger

deeper into my ass.

" I... uh... I massage her body, and kiss her feet and

breasts... then she wants me to lick her ass..."

" Her flabby ass... " Mini corrected, with obvious

amusement at the fact that Auntie couldn't understand the

insult.

" Yes... I lick her flabby ass, and put my tongue into

her ass hole... then when she wants me to, I lick her pussy

until she cums..."

" This is too funny, " Mini told her friend. " I want to

watch. Make him do it. "

There was no question about whether I would comply. I was

too horny to resist. Auntie took pride in showing me off to

her friends, and gladly led me to Ashley's room to re-enact

our daily sessions.

Duchess and Mini watched from the end of the bed,

giggling and making jokes. Auntie assumed that they were

still taunting me, and so she made a great show of pushing

her body into my face. In truth, the women were making jokes

about her as much as myself. They encouraged her in

Vietnamese, but in English, they ridiculed her body and

manners right in front of her.

" She looks like a beached whale... or maybe a pig...

listen to the way she grunts..."

" Look at how dirty she is... I bet this is the only time

she gets cleaned..."

" But it looks like he does a good job. He's putting his

face right in there. Look at her shake... it's like

jello..."

" It looks like he enjoys it too... watch the way he rubs

himself while he licks at the fat bitch's ass..."

I didn't even know I was doing it, but now that Duchess

mentioned it, I realized that I had taken up the humiliating

habit of absently jerking myself off while servicing the

woman's middle-aged body. With a second flush of shame, I

had to admit that I couldn't stop myself, even with the

other two women watching. Duchess took matters into her own

hands. Taking a position behind me that reminded me of the

way Ashley's boyfriend had mounted me, she pulled my arms

behind my back. She tied them there with an old pair of

socks that had been abandoned beside Ashley's bed.

" Umph. " Without my arms to support me, my face was

buried even deeper into the flesh of Auntie's rear end.

Duchess and Mini ridiculed me as I squirmed and struggled to

catch my breath.

After a few more minutes of this fun, they decided to

change the game. It was Mini's turn.

Auntie gave up her position on the bed to the younger,

more attractive woman. Auntie stood stupidly beside the bed

for a moment before Duchess ordered her out of the room. It

was clearly above their dignity to allow a low-class

housewife like Auntie to watch their fun. She grudgingly

obeyed.

After weeks of forced service of Auntie's body, I have to

say that I was more than a little excited by the prospect of

seeing something a little more... well, dainty. Mini began

to pull the clothing off of her tiny frame, but paused just

before shedding her underwear.

" Does he have to watch me like that ?"

It was a strange modesty, I found myself thinking, that

would allow her to have her best friend there to watch her

pussy being licked, but wouldn't allow her to reveal her

body to me. But then, Duchess had this way about her, and I

doubted that Mini would have the courage to ask her to

leave, even if it made her uncomfortable.

Duchess retrieved another article of Ashley's discarded

clothing from the floor, this time, a tiny tank-top that

Ashley must have looked amazing in. Duchess folded it over

itself into a makeshift blindfold, and secured it around my

head. I could still see a little from the edges of the

fabric, but it blocked a clear view of the body I was so

anxious to see.

For my first taste of Mini, Duchess still held me by the

hair, and guided my lips to her friend's crotch. I moaned

with pleasure as her dainty folds of flesh opened for me,

and I tasted the relative sweetness of her pussy.

" Oh, this is so good... Minh would never do this for

me..."

Duchess had found other ways to amuse herself. While Mini

took her leisurely time with my tongue, she played with my

exposed ass, fingering my sensitive rear hole, and

periodically slapping my cheeks until the shade of pink was

to her liking. My submissive position obviously pleased her.

" You know, Blondie, " she told me, " back in my part of

the world, when I was a girl, the only white men I ever saw

were fat American tourists. My family lived in Thailand a

while. There, the men came for sex tours. They walked the

streets with every reason to expect that the girls they saw

were for sale. These are the white men I saw when I was

growing up. I thought they must be very powerful, rich men.

"

She accentuated the points of her lesson by slapping my

reddened ass.

" But then I came over here, and I found out the truth.

White people are weak and pathetic, only favoured by the

fortunes of history. We come here and sell drugs to their

children. They talk about it on the news all the time, but

they never do anything about it. Now, we're richer than our

white neighbours, and they envy us, and fear us. "

" And you, Blondie, are the weakest of them all. My

husband, he thinks you're here for the money. But he's

wrong... you're here because it makes your dick hard to be a

servant to a teenaged immigrant girl and her family. I think

it's funny, really, and I'm so glad she's found you. Back in

Asia, Ashley probably would have been sold into prostitution

very young. She would have spent her life spreading her legs

for the white men she was taught to serve. Instead, she

learns about white men from a sissy like you. It's perfect.

I couldn't have planned it better. Ashley doesn't care about

you at all. She thinks you're a sissy, and she makes fun of

you... but that doesn't matter to you... I see your little

prick is still hard while I fuck your ass with my fingers,

and tell you what a weakling you are. "

She was right, of course, about how horny I was. In the

time I had spent, first with Ashley, then with her Auntie,

my sexual gratification had come increasingly while playing

the submissive role. Duchess was just putting it into words,

shaming me and arousing me all at once. She fucked my ass

with her fingers while she talked, the way Ashley's

boyfriend had done on this bed. Mini's legs trembled against

my shoulders while she built towards orgasm. Only the sting

of sharp slaps to my rear end pulled me back from my own

pleasure getting out of control.



" Go on, Thuy, " Duchess encouraged her friend, " cum on

his tongue... that's what he's here for... don't hold

back..."

" Uuuuuungh.... Aaaaaaaah... " Mini slipped into her

climax as if only waiting for her cue. Her fragrant pussy

rocked against my lips, extracting every ounce of pleasure

from the moment.

" That was *really* good, " the petite woman giggled,

when she finally regained control. " You should really try

it. "

" I plan on it, but the sissy is too dirty to touch my

body. I think I need to clean him up a bit first. "

Duchess directed me to my feet, still keeping my hands

tied behind my back. Mini stayed there on Ashley's bed,

still savouring her pleasure of the past few minutes. As I

padded out into the hallway in my bare feet, I could see

from the edges of my blindfold that Duchess was leading me

into the washroom. Once there, she ordered me into the

shower.

" I think a dirty little creature like you needs a very

hot shower. Yes, you really need to be scrubbed before

you're worthy to taste my body. "

The heat of the water hit me in the face, and I stumbled

backwards blindly to avoid it. I even tried to step out of

the stall, but Duchess easily kept me in place. I was never

a large guy. Blindfolded, and with my hands tied, I wasn't

much of a challenge.

I cringed to one side of the shower, but once my body

became accustomed to the water, it wasn't nearly so bad. It

was just uncomfortably hot.

" There. Now get on your knees. That's right. Get your

filthy face right into the spray. "

Once I was on my knees, she began to scrub me with a

coarse washcloth and soap. Between the scrubbing, and the

heat of the water, I imagined that Duchess had my skin a

lovely shade of pink by now. I could see from the edges of

the blindfold that she had undressed. I could only see her

bare legs, but it was enough to revive my failing erection.



The heat began to get to me. It was hard to breathe. All

of my senses were absorbed into the sharp hot spray of

water, and the steam that rose around me. Noticing my

breathing difficulties, Duchess pressed it a step further,

and pinched my nose closed. The effect of this was to make

me gulp for air with my mouth, which was difficult to do

with the shower spray centred on my face. I sputtered the

hot water, and gasped for breath.

" Poor sissy Blondie... has he had enough shower now... "

she baby-talked me. I nodded pathetically.

In a rare show of pity, she stopped the water. My

overheated body shook from exhaustion and arousal.

" You're much cleaner now, " Duchess told me, stepping

into the shower stall herself. I could see only her feet as

she stood above me. I desperately wanted to taste the pussy

which I knew was only a few inches above my face, but I

didn't dare without permission.

Duchess reached down and plugged my nose again, tilting

my head back in the same motion. I guess it amused her

enough the first time to see me struggle for breath, that

she wanted to do it again. Unexpectedly, warm water streamed

against my open mouth again, causing me to choke and sputter

anew. Only this time, it wasn't the spray of the shower.

The acrid taste of her piss hit my tongue, and I gagged.

I shook my head to try to free myself, but only succeeded in

feeling her warm stream land against my cheeks and chin as

she emptied her bladder onto my face. Her statement didn't

need to be spoken. She was telling me what I was worth, and

I confirmed it for her in the moment after she was finished.

" You may lick me now. "

And I did.

She allowed me to shower again before sending me to my

room exhausted.

It was hours later, and I was fast asleep when Ashley

returned. She nudged me awake roughly. " Hi ya Blondie. I

had a real good night. I go out drinking with the guys. I

came home, and the girls tell me you did good for them, and

so I give your reward. "

Ashley squirmed out of the tight track shorts she was

wearing tonight. I began to move out of the way on the bed

for her, but she stopped me. " No, you stay right there. "

I was laying on my back, and Ashley simply climbed up,

and straddled my face. The way the pale skin of her legs

glowed in the semi-light of the room made me anxious to

taste her pussy. I was more in love with her than ever,

despite everything.

As soon as she brought her pussy down onto my lips, I

could taste him seeping from within her. He had probably

fucked her only minutes before, and now I was getting his

full load of cream as it dripped from her pussy onto my

lips. Ashley herself was more than a little drunk, and

clumsily rested the weight of her body on my face as she

rocked back and forth.

Still half-immersed in my dreams, I savoured every taste

I had been given today. It had begun with the all too

familiar musk of Auntie's ass hole against my lips. Then I

had been treated to the sweetness of Mini's pussy quaking

against my tongue. Minutes later, I had cleaned the last

drops of urine from the Duchess' crotch before licking her

to orgasm. Now, I was ending my day with the strong, salty

cum of Ashley's boyfriend sliding down my throat.

It was a perfect end to the day.

Growing tip #5: The plants have two stages of growth. When

they're young, I give them a full eighteen hours of light,

but they still stretch for more. Then, when I want to

convince them bloom, I cut the light hours back. The plants

become even more starved for light, completing for the

remaining hours. This is when you have to be the most

careful with light, temperature, and nutrients. If you don't

control it properly, it can be a rough transition.

In my quieter moments, amongst the plants, I sometimes

tried to put reason to my sick appetites. This lifestyle was

one that never would have even entered my fantasies six

months before, when I was absorbed in the world of

academics.

In a funny way, though, it all made sense to me.

Cowboy, going on the assumption that money was the

universal motivator, had given me over a thousand dollars

for my first few weeks of work. I knew that it was a

ridiculously small portion of the revenues I had generated,

but I made no complaint. As Duchess had probably reminded

him, I would have done the work for free.

So, in the months that would come before my return to

college, I was shielded from my 'real' life. I gave up

control, and it felt surprisingly good. I didn't have to

make the decisions. I just did what everyone told me, and I

was rewarded with a life amongst the plants I loved, and

frequent, humiliating sex that I didn't have to feel guilty

about.

They were using me, and I was eager to be used. As long

as I accepted my role here, I could walk away later without

consequence.

When fall came, I knew, I would have no regrets about my

time here. It was like a vacation from my own sense of

morality. I would reclaim my life in college, with enough

sexual depravity piled away in my memories to last me a

lifetime, months of practical experience on plant

cultivation, and with thousands of dollars in my pocket that

would render me independent of Janice and the other academic

bullies.

Auntie continued her daily sessions, of course, but soon

after the dinner party, I was getting regular visits from

Mini and Duchess too.

Mini liked to enjoy my whole body. She still wanted me

blindfolded, but once she was comfortable, she even allowed

me to enter her occasionally, under the condition that I

didn't cum inside of her. That was a difficult requirement

to meet. Mini was a beautiful woman, and she was a lively

lover, enjoying in me an aerobic sort of lovemaking that I

was sure Andy Capp wasn't able to provide her. She would

sometimes have sympathy for me, and jerk me off after she

was done, but it was as much for her own amusement as it was

for my pleasure.

Duchess took a different approach. There was no sympathy.

She was constantly pushing my boundaries of humiliation and

discipline. Unsatisfied with merely spanking my ass, she had

purchased a variety of punishment devices from a local sex

shop. She would handcuff me to a bedpost while she inflicted

red marks of ownership across all parts of my pale body.

Mini would sometimes watch, but rarely had the stomach to

stay a whole session.

Once it was common knowledge amongst the guys that I was

performing this way for their women, Auntie stopped hiding

her activities from Poe. She was never so daring as to allow

it to interfere with her household duties (many of which had

been delegated to me anyhow), but she did occasionally take

advantage of my services in the evening or on the weekends

when he was home.

In fact, once he got used to the idea, Poe seemed quite

indifferent about it. I was like a vibrator, or a dirty

magazine; something that his wife used for the sexual

gratification that he wasn't willing to provide her.

One night, about two weeks after Poe first learned about

everything, Auntie even negotiated my way into her bedroom

at night. Poe was there, but he paid no attention to me. He

was, no doubt, reminding her of her wifely duties. I could

see by the bulge in his underwear that he was ready for

action.

I don't know what she told him, but they debated for

several minutes about where I should be in this scene.

Finally, Auntie directed me onto the bed, laying face up.

She explained the position to her husband, and he

reluctantly agreed to give it a try. Aunti crawled above my

face, and Poe positioned himself behind her, apparently to

fuck her doggy style.



Poe's little cock bobbed above my chin as Auntie squirmed

into the perfect position. I found the idea of being this

close to his cock revolting. It was one thing to lick a used

pussy, but quite another to be confronted with the source of

the semen I had been tasting all these weeks.

He seemed to feel awkward about it too, and argued one

more time. Auntie answered by grinding her pussy against my

lips, and rolling her hips in invitation. I guess his

arousal lost him the debate, because not much after I was

tonguing her hole from below, I felt the head of his cock

invading her pussy from behind, and his balls pushing up

against my chin.

" Good boy, Blondie, " Auntie encouraged me, enjoying the

dual sensation that this was providing her.

The problem with my position was that soon everything was

a moving target. With some displeasure, I soon found that I

was licking and sucking Poe's balls as much as I was

reaching Auntie's clitoris. He groaned from above somewhere.

My mouth being filled of male flesh was just one more

barrier broken in this depraved world I had entered

willingly, and though I can't pretend that I was turned on

by it, I knew that I was no longer in a position to protest.

I had humbled myself too completely to step back now.

Before long, I was licking their bodies indiscriminately,

drawing sounds of pleasure from both husband and wife. Poe

had hold of her hips, and was stabbing into her with short

strokes, so as to not dislodge his small cock from her body

inadvertently. Auntie was fighting to keep her swollen clit

within reach of my tongue, lowering herself further onto my

face.

It was inevitable that I took his cum in my face. I'm not

sure whether he dropped his load directly onto my lips, or

whether his cum just leaked from her when her pulled out.

Probably a bit of both. Either way, I found myself lapping

up his fresh cum, and cleaning his wife's fucked pussy. By

the time she was done riding my face, I felt like a used

whore, and was sexually frustrated as usual.

They enjoyed it so much, we repeated the scene every

week.

My real success didn't come in the bedroom. It was clear

that I could tend the plants better than most of Cowboy's

organization. In a move that surprised me as much as anyone

else, he picked me up one day and took me on a tour of his

rented houses.

The scale of his operations astounded me. These rented

houses had been gutted. Dozens of lamps were strung above a

sea of green leaves, rippling gently from the circulating

fans of the rooms.

" You take care of these, " he ordered, and pressed a few

hundred dollar bills into my hand.

It was more exciting than I had imagined. Every technique

that I had ever wanted to try was at my disposal. The

Vietnamese had bypassed the electricity meters, giving me

unlimited electrical power to play with. I used it to cool

and dehumidify the grow rooms, and pump in nearly fifty

watts of light energy for every square foot of growing

space.

With the money and equipment I had at my disposal, I

added extra carbon dioxide to the rooms. Balanced carefully

with light and nutrients, the extra CO2 could almost double

the growth of the plant. At these growth rates, I had to be

careful. Meticulous. I couldn't make mistakes.

Unfortunately for me, the mistake was already made. The

electricity bypass that provided me such freedom to expend

power was also what cost me my freedom in the end. It was

just a matter of time before it caught up with me.

You see, much more than the police, the provincial

utility company has a major stake in the marijuana

cultivation industry. As long as the growers pay their

bills, the electricity flows, and no one questions why

you're pulling enough power to light a football stadium.

When the meter doesn't spin, that's when they're waiting for

you one day.

That day came for me about a month after cowboy handed me

the keys.

Growing Tip #6: Under the artificial conditions of a grow

room, your plants will nearly always exhibit signs of

stress. Wilting. Leaf discoloration. Leggy growth. When the

stress is too much, however, your plants may be pushed into

a hermaphrodite state... exhibiting characteristics opposite

its own sex.

The fucked-up thing is, I didn't even begin doing drugs

until I was in prison. I didn't start sucking cock until

then, either, but both of these activities quickly became

survival skills for me.

So, on the day that they broke my nose, my brain was

still juggling the mixed pleasure and disgust of some opiate

coursing through my veins, and the flavour of my cell mate's

sperm at the back of my throat. Three guys were holding me

down against the floor now, while Tom levelled a chisel from

the shop against the bridge of my nose.

I'd been assailed before like this. It was just a sick

part of my new reality that any young guy with clear skin

and straight teeth represented a prime sexual opportunity

for a lot of these guys. On two previous assaults, I had

been fucked in the ass and mouth until I could barely move,

but I knew that I would come out alive. This time, I felt

the cold metal of the chisel against my nose, and I was

suddenly afraid for my life.

" Don't worry, Sissy... " Tom assured me, seeing the

panic in my eyes, " I'll still take care of you. You just

need to visit the infirmary for a while. "

It seemed like slow motion when he brought down the

hammer. It was only a tap against the metal, but it turned

into an explosion behind the sockets of my eyes. I tried to

cry out, but a kick in my side took away my air. Moments

later, the kicks rained down on me, and I lost

consciousness.

I woke up in little stretches, nearly alone in the

hospital ward. I didn't try to move. A haze of drugs

convinced me that I was better off staying still. The pain

was distant, but I knew that it was there. I could feel it

in my bruised face. I could feel my stomach and ribs,

bandaged too tightly for comfort. My chest hurt when I

breathed, and my flesh was tender all over. But as long as

they kept the morphine drip, drip, dripping, I guess I

couldn't muster up much of a complaint.

The doctor was a tall man, or at least seemed that way

from my permanently reclined position. He visited every day,

and added various syringes of drugs to my saline drip. They

weren't pain killers, I was certain. Those were delivered by

the nurses, and I could feel them right away. No. These were

different.

I guess I was suspicious on one level, but soon, sleep

would come, and I would forget.

As the days went by, the pain decreased, and I was awake

with my thoughts for more hours. I had time to review

everything. My trial had gone by so quickly, it was a blur.

I had pled guilty, of course.

" It's not like you can really pretend that you're

innocent, " argued my lawyer, who was generously provided to

me by Cowboy. " Best that you just throw yourself on the

mercy of the court, and hope they don't sentence too

harshly. This is your first offence, isn't it ?"

I knew at the time that the advice was given with an

agenda. Duchess and cowboy wanted this thing to go away

quickly, and without any of their other associates being

implicated.

The mercy of the court, I later found out, was non-

existent. The prosecutor brought out my notebooks as proof

that I was a danger to re-offend. I was placed in a maximum

security institution, convicted of marijuana cultivation,

trafficking, and theft of electricity.

The irony of everything hit me early on. I had accepted,

and even sought out, humiliation at Ashley's hands as a sort

of escape from the fake world of academics I had been

immersed in. All the way through my journey into depravity,

I had always viewed it as a sort of vacation from my real

life. It was below me... slumming... but I enjoyed it.

Now, fall had come and gone, and I knew I wasn't going

back to university. In fact, I was taking my initiation in

an educational institution of an entirely different sort.

Here, more than anyplace else, my mental aptitudes were

useless. I was intellectually superior to my cell mate by a

wide margin. Tom was a habitual criminal because he had no

other skills. He took his thrills from talking about fast

cars and loose women. The guy was a moron.

Yet, when night came, I was the one who was face down on

his bunk, while he rested a Hustler magazine between my

shoulder blades, and fucked my rear hole while talking dirty

to the artificial women in those glossy pages.

During the day, he would spew his ignorant opinions to

his friends. I could, if I wanted, silently shred his flawed

logic. It drove me insane that he felt he could end any

argument by popping out the only long word he ever learned

in his white trash education.

" Irregardless, " he would sum up his opinions, and then

go on to another one of his conspiracy theories, which I

soon learned were like candy for Tom. I didn't bother

pointing out the double negative to him. Why correct the

guy, when it would just result in him demanding a public

blow job to show everyone who was boss ?

As much as I resented his bullying, I stayed close by

him. He was my protector in a strange way. As long as I

belonged to him, I wasn't subject to being raped by the

other inmates like I had been in my early weeks here. I

played submissive to him the way I had been trained by my

time with the Vietnamese women, and it seemed to please him

to no end.

Which is why I was so puzzled by this turn of events. I

couldn't figure out why Tom and his buddies had broken my

nose, and had beaten me to the extent that I had to be

hospitalised. Apparently, the prison counsellor had been

working on the same mystery. She visited me one day when I

was nearly recovered. The doctor stood at my bedside.

" He looks... different..."

" I did my best to reset his nose. I think the results

are remarkable, considering. "

" Quite. And his lips... ?"

" Just swelling. They'll go down over time. "

" His neck ?"

" He took a pretty good blow to the throat. I had to

scrape away part of the Adam's apple that was too severely

damaged. You can find a full account of it in my medical

report. "

" No need... it looks like you did a fine job. "

She turned her attention to me.

" You're a tough case. I can see from your file that you

refused a deal with the prosecutor that would have seen you

take simple probation. "

It was news to me, but in truth, I expected no more from

my lawyer. Any deal that would have compromised Cowboy's

organisation would never have crossed his lips.

" Don't tell me that you now want to protect the boys who

did this violence to you. You must have seen something. Tell

me who it was. "

I shook my head and croaked out my answer. " I didn't

see. "

Two of the guys who had been holding me were members of a

biker gang. Tom was loosely associated with the Angels. If I

told anyone about their involvement, I wouldn't survive long

in this place.

" Come on, " she inched a little closer, and lowered her

voice sympathetically. " I know that it can't have been easy

for you in a place like this. Don't be a martyr. If they can

do this to you once, they'll do it again. "

I shook my head again.

The counsellor stood back and address the doctor again. "

When will he be out of infirmary ?"

" In the next few days, but I'll need to have follow-up

appointments every few days to insure that he's healing up

okay. "

" Agreed. "

Despite what the doctor said, the swelling on my lips

never did go down. When I was finally out from the hospital,

and the constricting bandages were removed from my

midsection, I was startled by how different I looked.

I don't know what the doctor did to me while he had me at

his clinic. My waist had been constricted to a ridiculous

proportion. I had never had a whole lot of body fat, but

what was left seemed to be displaced into my hips, giving me

a much more feminine body shape.

The change to the shape of my nose was dramatic. I don't

know any word to describe it except "cute". My cheekbones

seemed to be placed somewhat higher on my face, perhaps with

implants. I viewed myself in the mirror with disbelief,

pressing my fingers against the numb portions of my face

that had been so radically altered. The reduction of my

Adam's apple, and the extra flesh on my lips added to my

makeover.

Back in the cell, Tom was more controlling and protective

than ever. I was his prize, and he never left me alone.

During the day, he kept me fully dressed to hide the changes

in my body. At night, though, I reported to his bunk for

"training".

I tried not to think about the sex. The drugs helped a

bit. If I had enough artificial pleasure burning in my

veins, I could just lay there and take it any way the pig

wanted it. The drugs would tell me when to moan in pleasure,

and how to play the part of the perfect whore that he

wanted.

The problem was, Tom never gave me quite enough. I had to

settle for brief, delicious moments of unreality, before it

would all come back to me in a flood of cum down my throat.

Dr. Rivers was a little more generous with his drugs.

Every second day, I visited his office for a check-up.

The first thing he would do is give me a long sweet drink of

morphine. I waited anxiously while he fed the liquid into my

arm, ever so slowly. By the time he withdrew the syringe, I

wasn't a bit concerned about what else he did to me in his

examinations.

I didn't ask what all the other injections were for. In

truth, I guess I already had a pretty good idea. I tried to

hide the changes from the other guys, but here in the

examination room, when he took off my shirt and prodded at

my sensitive and swollen nipples, it was clear that I was

growing little breasts.

He checked the places where he had done liposuction on my

belly, and instructed me on the kind of diet I should

maintain to keep the figure he had so generously provided

me.

" If I only could have had you a few years sooner, " he

mused, admiring his work in progress. " No matter. With

enough work, you'll be prefect. Just a few little

adjustments. Maybe an extra dose or two of hormones, eh ?"

I nodded stupidly through the morphine.

In these visits, he did all of the little adjustments he

wanted. On a couple of visits, he brought electrolysis

equipment, to remove any body hair that would mar his

artwork. He tried various chemical scrubs on my skin to

promote a pale, soft flesh. Some of them were painful, but

he was unconcerned. All that mattered was the results.

He would, of course, test the results by bending me over

the examination table when he was done, and feeding his cock

into me from behind. He would cup my little breasts in his

hands and pinch my oversensitive nipples until I squealed.

In every way, he wanted to see how convincing I was as a

girl.



" Come on, you little whore... tell me how much you like

it..." he would instruct me.

I would act my part of the script in a falsetto that

seemed to please him.

" Mmmm... yeah... fuck me, it feels so goood..."

And if he gave me enough drugs, I could even mean it for

a while.

Growing Tip # 7: Don't rush at the end. The buds will be

ready when they're ready. Even once you've taken them off of

the plant, don't rush the process. They need to be dried

slowly, or the final product will be too harsh a smoke. Take

the right amount of time, and the product will burn just

right.

My only friend was John the Bear.

" Is Ivan in my home country, but here is John, " the old

Russian explained. " A very common name. In every country,

there is a name for Ivan. Here, it is John. "

He had an oddly repetitive way of speaking. It was like

he was always convincing himself that what he was saying was

the truth.

" You take my Queen, yes, but it is no problem. The Queen

is a good piece, yes, but even a Pawn can win the game. Many

times in championship games, the difference is made by lowly

Pawn. Is no matter that you take my Queen. "

Even in the horror that had become my life, there were

hours when Tom and his biker friends were otherwise

occupied. Maybe they were developing yet another conspiracy

theory, or watching ESPN, or some shit like that. I didn't

care.

In these times, Tom allowed me to visit the next cell

over, and play chess with the Russian. I was never quite

skilled enough to take a game, but I was the only inmate who

could give him a challenge, if I wasn't on drugs at the

time. Between moves, he would muse upon my predicament.

" They make you a girl, yes. Is probably not a bad thing.

Is all about tactics. You sent here for growing with the

Vietnamese, yes ? "

It wasn't really a question. John always knew the

answers.

" Is no good for the Vietnamese to have you in here. They

will be afraid that you go weak and testify against them.

Yes, they will be very afraid that you will be disloyal. So

for them, it might be better that you be dead, eh ? Yes, for

Vietnamese, it would be better if you no longer were a

threat. "

" This is same for bikers in here. On outside, they make

money from controlling drug trade. They make good money from

selling the drugs that your Vietnamese grow. Is a good

partnership, yes ? Vietnamese protect their grow rooms, and

the bikers provide big muscle to get drugs past the border.

Yes, is good partnership, and the bikers have much to lose

if you testify against Vietnamese. "

He paused to move his King's Bishop, a move which left me

puzzling about his overall strategy.

" So, when bikers see that you look like a girl, it gives

them reason not to kill you. They bribe this doctor to make

you more like a girl, and this makes you valuable in the

prison. And so maybe not such a bad thing that they make you

a girl. Maybe not so pleasant for you, yes, but it keeps you

alive, and so I have a chess partner. "

My brains were only useful to one person in these prison

walls. For everyone else, it was my rapidly developing body

that was the main attraction. Tom had been careful to keep

me to himself, so as to not attract too much attention from

the prison administration. Nonetheless, it eventually came

time for him to repay the bikers who had funded the changes

to my body.

I knew that something weird was happening from early in

the day. A couple of the prison guards visited our cell to

talk with Tom. After a few minutes of negotiation, he

instructed me to give each of them a blow-job to seal the

deal.

It turned out that he was bribing them for their silence

about the scheduled show for tonight.

It began with a shower. Tom wanted everything perfect. He

left me there with a gym bag, and instructions to "get your

pretty ass ready, and come down to the gym. "

One of the guards stood nearby as my escort. He watched

while I shed my prison clothing, and revealed just how fully

by breasts had developed. They were still small, but they

had rounded out, and my sensitive nipples were puffed out

with chemically induced excitement. Tom had given me a taste

of methamphetamine before taking me out to the showers. It

wouldn't be enough to get me through the night, but it got

my heart going.

I closed my eyes and stepped into the hot water, trying

to pretend that I was showering for the Duchess. The memory

of that scene was hot in my mind, and aroused me to no end,

but my penis reacted feebly. I soaped my cock up, but it

stayed pathetically small. It just didn't seem to matter

anymore. It was out of place on my new body.

My tits and ass were the centres of my sexuality now. The

prison guard let out a low whistle as I moved upwards and

massaged my breasts into the hot water. I was trying to

psych myself up for the sex show that the bikers were

expecting from me, and was unwittingly putting on quite a

display for the guard.

When I stepped out of the shower, and opened the gym bag

to find a towel, I was met with another surprise. Beneath

the towel was a neatly laid out set of women's clothing, bra

and panties at the top of the pile, and a pretty flowered

sun-dress beneath.

A lump rose to my throat. The thought of dressing up like

a girl was almost too much. I don't know why. I mean, I had

been fucked like a girl more times than I cared to remember

behind these walls, but I guess I still tried to keep my

identity somewhere inside. Dressing up like a girl was just

one more step in giving up my male identity.

I fumbled with the bra first. It was a B-cup, and it fit

me fairly well. The red lace garment felt strange against my

skin, displaying my breasts like a gift wrap. I slid into

the panties next. The underwear slipped between the crack of

my ass, leaving my pale rear just barely covered.

Next, I pulled the sun-dress over my head. The pretty

little cotton thing stopped just above my knees, and

accentuated the newly feminine curves of my body. With a red

face, I had to ask for the guard's help to zip up the back

of the dress.

There were a few other details in the bag. It took me

nearly ten minutes to struggle into the tiny shoes that had

been provided. They only had small heels, but I wobbled on

them nonetheless.

I sprayed on my perfume, and tried my best not to overdo

my make-up. There was a purse with long straps in the back.

I put my remaining make-up into the purse, and let the

handbag dangle from my wrist as I made my way out of the

showers. The last thing I wanted to do was to leave the guys

waiting. Tom would make me pay for embarrassing him.

The guard put his hand on my ass as he escorted me to the

gym.

" You look just like an ex-girlfriend of mine, " he

commented, which for some reason made me blush.

I entered the gym to the sound of hoots and whistles from

the congregated Angels. The second guard I had sucked off in

the morning stood watchfully by the door. I stumbled on my

heels as I made my way into the room.

The guys were laughing and sharing their opinions about

my body. Many of them had seen me when I first came into the

prison, although more recently, Tom had kept me pretty

isolated. The guys seemed impressed with the Doctor's work.

" Look 'it that tight ass, " one of the guys remarked.

" Not too tight though, eh Tom ? " another guy nudged my

cell-mate, and everyone laughed at my expense.

What struck me the most was just how big most of these

guys were. These were enforcers and drug runners for the

organization, and they certainly lived up to the menacing

reputation of the gang. In comparison, I was a very small

guy, which just added to the illusion of my femininity.

" Let's see her titties, " one guy yelled.

" God, I can't wait to nail this cunt. "

" Whoa..." Tom took his place as MC. " Just a minute

guys. I don't think she's warmed up for us yet. Just like

every other girl I know, Blondie likes a little something to

get her in the mood. Now, my girlfriend, she wants

foreplay... but Blondie's not so choosy... she just likes a

little taste of heroin or crack to get her going, then she's

willing to fuck all night. "

I felt like a pig just about to be put onto a spit, and

the guys were all licking their chops for a little meat. If

someone was going to give me a little something to help me

through it, I wasn't going to turn it down.

A big biker near the centre of the room was the first to

volunteer his drugs. He flicked something at me from a few

feet away, and it landed near my feet. I dropped to my

knees, betraying a desperation that the guys found more than

a little amusing. They whistled and cheered when I bent

forward to retrieve the offering, revealing my panties from

behind.

It was a fat joint that the big guy had flicked towards

me. It wasn't what I was expecting. Since I had come here, I

had been accustomed to the harder drugs. Morphine was what I

got in the hospital. Heroin was Tom's drug of choice.

Now I was on my knees, reacquainting myself with an old

friend named Mary-Jane.

I inhaled it deeply, and then choked out the smoke. Twice

more, I tried to keep the smoke down, but each time, the

tickle in my throat betrayed me.

" A drink, please... " I asked, desperate to get a little

high before the sex began.

" Here's something to wet your lips on, " the large biker

who had donated the joint stood and unzipped his trousers.

He planted his bog cock in front of my face, and I couldn't

do anything but obey.

I couldn't believe my position. I was dressed like a

girl... hell, for the most part I now *was* a girl... and I

was sucking this guy's big cock in front of a crowd of

twenty other guys who would expect the same treatment. The

only thing that kept me from crying was the marijuana smoke

that was rising into my nose.

The huge biker allowed me to toke on the joint a few

times between sucking. My throat relaxed, and allowed me to

keep the smoke down. Soon, I began to feel the pleasure of

the drug gently rising in the base of my brain.

My lips numbed. The high wasn't as overwhelming as the

opiates I was accustomed too. The smoke affected me in an

entirely different way. It crept up on me, and my world

became suddenly very small.

There was just me, and my numb lips, and a rubbery cock

to suck on, and a thick joint burning fragrantly between my

fingers. I was with an old friend, who Ashely had introduced

me to in a dark basement room. She had shown me how to enjoy

my degradation, and had led me onto a path that brought me

here.

Now, a cock unloaded into my mouth, and I swallowed

without hesitation. That old sense of arousal at being

humiliated was coming back to me.

I stood unsteadily, and listened to the commands of the

crowd.

" Strip for us... show us your tits... yeah, get on your

knees... crawl like a bitch... open your ass... "

Each shameful action came easily to me. Other guys gave

me donations of drugs, and I wallowed mindlessly in sexual

arousal and drug-induced pleasure.

They took turns fucking me, and roughly mauled my

titties. I squealed and moaned and made all of the little

sounds that they wanted to hear. Once I was drugged and

aroused, it wasn't hard to imagine that I was exactly the

girl they guys viewed me as.

These guys were so big... their cocks were so big... I

took them in my mouth until I couldn't breathe, and even

that didn't seem to bother me...

... until I passed out.

They must have used me for a while longer, but I

eventually ended up in my old home at the infirmary. My

bruised body reminded me about what I had done, and I sought

refuge in the familiar blanket of pain killers.

***

When I was finally released, it was just lucky timing

that I arrived back at my cell when Tom wasn't there. I was

able to go over to play one last game of chess with John the

Bear.

" You look more an more like a woman every time I see

you, yes ? " he gave me a hug in greeting. " Is good work

this doctor does. Maybe I should send my wife in to see him.

Is very good work. "

We sat down to play. He wasn't long in beginning his

lecture.

" This cannot continue, is what I hear. I hear that the

warden is not happy with the trouble it causes to have a

woman in the prison. Is big trouble for him. I don't think

he will let it continue. "

He changed subjects unexpectedly.

" I have many employees on the outside. I guess you say

that I'm the big boss, yes ? Some are loyal, like you. Yes.

You very loyal to your Vietnamese. You would never betray

them. I see them visit you sometimes, and they are worried,

yes ? But you still will not betray them, even though you

suffer in here. Is very good to be so loyal. Some of my

employees are not so loyal, and they take on business

without me. This is always the way when there are many

employees. "

" This one employee, he does extra business by growing

this marijuana. He never tells me that he will be doing

this. He rents a house on his own. It is a house by the

water, near the docks, so he thinks the neighbours will not

notice. I tell you where this house is. It is on Victoria

street. The last house before the water. You remember this,

yes ?"

" Yes, " I answered, still puzzled by why he was giving

me this information.

I remained puzzled until I was brought in for a meeting

with the prison warden, the prison counsellor, and Dr.

Rivers. A fourth man sat silently beside the doctor.

" Take off your shirt, " Dr. Rivers told me.

I hesitated to do so in front of the female counsellor.

She reminded me of Janice, and I couldn't meet her eyes.

Slowly, I unbuttoned my shirt. The warden and the counsellor

gasped when I revealed my breasts.

" How the hell does someone *do* this in prison ?" the

warden asked, almost rhetorically.

The Janice-clone answered. " It's not going to come as a

surprise to you that there's a drug problem in the prison

here. I don't suppose it's any different to smuggle in the

hormone treatments that this young man has used. It's not

uncommon for a young homosexual male, when introduced to the

prison environment, to take on a female role. They just

don't normally do it quite this well. "

" It's unbelievable, " the warden shook his head. " I

can't have this going on. "

He turned to me and made his offer.

" Listen to me carefully boy. This is your only chance.

You obviously want to become a female. I'm willing to let it

happen, and I'm willing to transfer you to a female

correctional facility. You just have to do one thing for me.

"

Female ?

" How ?" I asked.

" Dr. Rivers has brought a colleague who is willing to

perform the operation for free, given certain

considerations. "

" What considerations ?"

" You can discuss that with your doctors, " he evaded the

question. " But I've reviewed the doctor's offer, and I

assure you that it's quite fair. Generous, even, considering

the normal costs involved in the operation. "

" I'm not sure I want to..."

The female counsellor spoke up again, her voice as

sympathetic as she could fake. " If you stay here, things

will only get worse. I've seen the reports of your injuries.

I know that you're using drugs to cope. You're a smart kid.

You've got to have figured out that you're at risk of

contracting AIDS in this environment. How much longer can

you really last ?"

I lowered my eyes.

" I just need one thing from you, " repeated the warden,

seemingly anxious to close the deal. " You obviously know

the locations of more grow operations. I just need you to

tell me about one. That's my price. That way, I can justify

it to the crown. Just one little grow operation, and I'll

approve everything for you. "

I couldn't betray Cowboy. He would have me killed.

" Speak up, boy. No one will know that it was you. "

They would know. No one else would betray them. Besides,

I wasn't even certain that cowboy would have kept his grow

operation in place this long after my arrest.

It was a no-win situation.

" Come on. Just one. Just give me an excuse to help you,

boy. "

I wasn't even sure that I wanted it. I would be giving up

my male identity forever. I would be sissy Blondie.

But returning to Tom's control was no better an option.

The words came too easily to my lips.

" Victoria Drive... I'm not sure of the exact address...

on the north end, the last house before the waterfront..." I

silently thanked John the Bear for his gift.

***

I waited nervously in the hallway. Dr. Haskell had been

very particular about the way I should dress. He had even

gone shopping with me, on the first day of my three day

pass.

This was how I was spending my precious time outside of

the prison walls. It was our agreement. In lieu of payment

for the reconstruction of my sex organs, I had traded away

my prison leaves, and large blocks of additional time once I

made parole.

He bought me a blue sweater and smart looking skirt for

my debut.

" I don't want there to be any question about whether

you're a female. You're the best example of my work, and so

you represent all of my skills. Don't embarrass me by being

anything less than perfect. "

Everything about this environment made me unsettled. The

hallways were familiar. They even smelled the same. My heart

ached just thinking about the distance I had come from this

life.

Students walked by. Most of them were around my own age.

I shuddered to think that I might see someone that I

would recognize. It didn't matter. Even if I did, no one

would recognize me. I was too different. This wasn't my

world at all anymore.

A few feet from me, the door cracked open, and Dr.

Haskell beckoned me in. It was show time. I nervously

straightened my clothing before coming into the room. The

hall was larger than I had imagined. Medical students filled

over a hundred seats for the guest lecture.

" This young lady has volunteered to be our subject

today, " the doctor explained. He closed the door behind me,

and I was startled a bit by the sound.

" No need to be nervous, my dear, " he said, still using

his lecture voice. " There's nothing that these students

haven't seen before... at least on a cadaver. For some of

the young men in the room, however, this may be their first

look at the living female anatomy. "

The comment brought chuckles from around the room.

I knew this had been coming, but it was worse than I had

imagined. I wondered what the female students would think of

me, a pretty young woman who had volunteered to spread her

legs for them and their male colleagues. They would think me

a real slut.

Which, of course, was true. If they only knew all of the

things I had to do for the other female prisoners each day,

they would be disgusted. My cell-mate now was Suzy Ninebark,

an Indian girl who had learned to resent the fuck out of

whites, and was taking it all out on the ass of the cute

white girl who shared her bunk at night. I was glad for all

of the lessons I had learned at the hands of the Vietnamese

girls. It was only my skill at pleasing her sexually that

kept Suzy from inflicting some serious damage on me.

" Why don't we get started ? Mary-Jane, would you please

disrobe ?"

I hesitantly pulled my sweater over my head while the

room looked on. Dr. Haskell had seen my body before, of

course. Hell, he had created it. He took up where Dr. Rivers

left off. Because he intended to use me as a showpiece, he

had resisted the temptation to enlarge my breasts with

implants. Instead, he had pushed up my levels of hormone,

and made some adjustments to my diet. The side effects were

uncomfortable, but he had increased me to a nearly a C-cup,

so he was happy.

The male students seemed appreciative of his efforts. No

one made any noises, of course, but I could feel their eyes

on me. In the front row, a male and a female student sat

together. I figured they must be a couple. She was keeping

an eye on his reaction, and nudged him with her elbow when

he seemed too attentive to my body. Also in the front row

were a few older men and women, who I assumed were

colleagues of Dr. Haskell's, sitting in for his guest

lecture.

Next, I slid out of my skirt. Exercise, diet, and

liposuction had sculpted my legs into a shape that Dr.

Haskell was pleased with.

" To be absolutely perfect, the spacing of the legs would

need to be slightly wider, " he had explained to me. " But

we work with what we have. " He had compensated by keeping

my inner thighs quite thin. The results were better than I

could have imagined.

I paused when I was down to my underwear.

" Don't be shy, my dear. Remember, you volunteered for

this. "

I lowered my eyes to the floor, and revealed the rest of

my body. The reactions were hushed, but I blushed

nonetheless.

" Climb up onto the table. It's time the class got a

better look. "

The examination table was set up at the front of the

lecture hall. Above, a projection screen displayed Dr.

Haskell's notes to the students.

I crawled up onto the table, allowing the doctor to move

me into the position he wanted. He placed my legs into the

stirrups, exposing my lower body fully to the students.

" Donald ? Can we get the image now ?"

On the large screen, Dr. Haskell's notes faded into

blackness. A moment later, the notes were replaced by

something much more compelling to the class. The teacher's

aid had set up a video camera. To my utter humiliation, the

screen was now filled with the enlarged image of my pussy.

The image blurred in and out as Donald worked on the focus.

I breathed quickly, trying to regain my composure. I had

to hide my reaction. This was my re-entry into the world of

academics, not as a teacher or student, but as a piece of

meat on the examining table. The image of a body I didn't

want to believe was my own was projected above me.

" Now, before we continue, I will let everyone know that

Mary-Jane is an interesting example of female anatomy. I

will, however, leave it to the students in this classroom to

discover what is unusual about our subject. Any volunteers

?"

The class was silent. Perhaps they were still adjusting

to the six foot image of my exposed ass and pussy dominating

the front of the room.

" Come now... you all hope to be doctors... I hope you're

not this embarrassed when your first real patient comes in

for an examination. "

His pressure prompted three students to come forward, two

males and a female. They approached my right side, and stood

awkwardly above my naked body. Dr. Haskell stepped back, and

waved his hands in invitation for them to examine me more

closely. I think he was savouring the embarrassment of both

myself and the students, but most of all, the secret that

would inevitably be revealed by their probing of my

artificial vagina.

" Go ahead... you aren't going to learn anything by just

standing there..."

One of the guys reached out tentatively, and touched the

folds of flesh between my legs.

" For god's sake, man, wear some gloves, " the doctor

berated him. " You don't just stick your grubby fingers

wherever you please. "

The student's face went a bright red, and he pulled his

fingers away as if he had touched electricity. There were

chuckles from the other students around the room. He stepped

back, and allowed the second male student to take his place.

This one had the good sense to retrieve some latex gloves

before proceeding with his examination.

He stood beside me, facing the screen. He watched the

image of my pussy on the overhead. I guess it made him more

comfortable, not viewing me directly. He used his gloved

fingers to slowly spread the lips of my pussy. Donald

reacted by zooming the video camera in for a bit of a close-

up.

" Anything unusual ? " asked Dr. Haskell from the

sidelines.

" Um, well... " the student stretched for answers, "

everything seems to be in place... "

" Of course it seems to be in place, " the doctor

snapped. " All you're doing is a superficial examination. Do

you really think you can learn anything from just spreading

the surface of her sex organs ? You're going to have to do

better than that Mr... " he consulted with a seating list "

Mr. Lewis. "

young Mr. Lewis was as embarrassed as the previous

student. He stepped back to allow the third student in.

" How about it, Miss Fulton ? Do you think you can do a

little better ?"

This girl seemed determined not to be made a fool of by

the teacher. She retrieved some equipment from the doctor's

tray, and circled around front of me, blocking the view of

the video camera. Whatever relief I got from not having my

body displayed on the screen was soon lost to the feel of

the student's breath against my sensitive flesh, and then

the cool touch of metal at my entrance.

Dr. Haskell had used equipment like this on me before. I

held my breath as the young woman slid the instrument into

me, and then locked it into position.

" What are you seeing, Miss Fulton ?" the doctor asked.

He could barely hide his excitement.

" Nothing. "

" Really ?"

" Yes. The cavity is a dead end. There are no

reproductive organs. No uterus. Nothing. "

" Are you certain ? " he goaded, trying to pressure her

into a doubting her conclusion, " maybe you're just not

using the equipment properly. "

She paused, but remained firm in her convictions. "

There's nothing. "

The doctor stood and approached the examination table.

This was his moment, and he was ready to enjoy it. " As Miss

Fulton so astutely points out, Mary-Jane has no reproductive

organs. In an operation last year, I removed her penis and

testicles, and reconstructed the flesh into the female form.

"

The room gasped and whispered in response. Dr. Haskell

continued his lecture, dismissing the three students from

the front of the room. The female student removed the

instrument before leaving, and once again, my body was

lewdly displayed on the big screen.

" As you all can seen, the difference is impossible to

detect from a surface examination. Her breasts are

completely natural, induced by hormonal supplementation.

They feel entirely normal, and are sensitive to the touch. "

He demonstrated by rubbing one of my nipples between his

fingers until it was erect.

" As for her other sex organs, you can certainly

attribute their fine appearance to the skill of the surgeon

if you please, " he smiled at his self-flattery, " and I

assure you that only her gynaecologist would ever know the

difference. She is fully sexually functional. Isn't that

right, Mary-Jane ?"

" Yes, " I answered.

" It's an interesting point to these operations. Most

people wonder if the subject will be able to achieve orgasm.

In this case, Mary-Jane has adjusted to experiencing more

typically female orgasms, and has reported to me that she

can even have multiple orgasms in a single session. "

Having this information shared with a classroom of

strangers was every bit as humiliating as you would imagine.

I was just relieved that he didn't ask me to tell the story

about how I had first experienced a multiple orgasm. Suzy

Ninebark had been beating my ass with one of her shoes while

I licked the pussy of her friend Mary.

The sensations were overwhelming, and I still hadn't

broken my habit of playing with myself during my

degradation. Then, Suzy hit just the right tempo, slapping

my ass red to the rhythm of my pleasure, and I had slipped

into a shameful orgasm, moaning my pleasure into Mary's

body. Suzy didn't let up on her beating, and I didn't stop

enjoying it. By the time I brought Mary off, I had cum three

times, and had rubbed myself raw.

Dr. Haskell wasn't done with humiliating me yet, however.

" Go ahead and show the students how you orgasm, Mary-

Jane. I'm sure they'll be interested. "

I couldn't refuse. If I broke my agreement with him, I'd

be in debt long past my prison term. More importantly, Dr.

Haskell often brought me a small package of drugs to the

prison. I dutifully turned them over to Suzy Ninebark. If my

supply ended, she would find a way to make me suffer for it.

Hesitantly, I lowered my hand down to my pussy, and began

rubbing myself roughly for the amusement of the class. As

nervous as I was, I knew I would have trouble coming to an

orgasm.

What Dr. Haskell hadn't explained was that despite my

appearance, there was no way he could endow my reformed

flesh with the number of nerve endings that would come

naturally to the female clitoris. I had to stimulate myself

more forcefully than I would do for other women, and it

always came easier when I was already aroused by licking

pussy or a punishment session. Damn it, I just wanted it to

be over.

While I worked on my pussy, a couple of Dr. Haskell's

colleagues came up on the podium nearby, and talked quietly

with my maker.

" Good show, Jack... where on earth did you find someone

like this ?"

" In prison. "

" You're pulling my leg. "

They chatted almost casually while the rest of the class

watched the freak-show in the big screen.

" No, I'm not. You know Phil Rivers. He has a contract

with corrections. By the time he brought me in for

consultation, he already had her most of the way through the

sex change. Now, she co-operates with me most spectacularly.

She's real eager to please, if you know what I mean. "

" You lucky bastard. This is a great gag. I'm sure

everyone will be lining up to book you for lectures. Look at

that, " he was watching my body jerk up and down on the big

screen, " she's absolutely perfect. You can tell she enjoys

doing this in public. "

" I'm glad you like her, Eric. She's got one more day

before she's due back in prison. I was thinking that I could

bring her over tomorrow for a little dinner gathering. "

" That sounds great. Will Monica be coming ?"

" No way. She'd never put up with this kind of thing. But

if I recall, Judith wouldn't have a problem with this, would

she ?"

" No. I think she'll quite enjoy it. In fact, maybe I'll

ask Marty and Lisa over too, if it's all right. "

I groaned involuntarily. All this talk of the doctors

sharing me with their wives was getting to me, despite

myself. My body shook with embarrassment and arousal.

" By the way, Jack, it looks like she's wearing some

make-up on her ass. What's that all about ? " Another one of

his colleagues spoke up.

" I'm not sure. I hadn't noticed. "

I had really hoped that he wouldn't. He had been so

particular about my appearance, I was sure he wouldn't

approve of my new tattoo.

" Do you mind if I check it out ?"

" No, go ahead. "

He brought a cotton swab and some saline to remove the

cover-up from my ass. I watched anxiously on the big screen.

The patch of flesh-coloured make-up was visible on my left

ass cheek. It covered the tattoo I had earned so painfully

from Suzy Ninebark. It had taken her most of a night to get

it the way she wanted.

He brought the cotton swab to my skin, and the coolness

of the saline surprised me. The class watched the action,

dividing their attention between curiosity about he markings

on my ass, and my obviously impending public climax. My body

was telegraphing how close I was to a humiliating orgasm.

Was there any other kind for me ?

The doctor wiped away the remaining make-up with a couple

of stroked, revealing the dark ink to everyone. They cocked

their heads in unison, as from their vantage point, on the

screen, the tattoo was upside down.

It only took a few seconds for the laughing to begin.

' Suzy's Dumb cunt ' was the unimaginative derogatory the

native girl had branded on my ass.

The shame of it all washed over me.

This was definitely going to take more than one orgasm.

***

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